In March 26, I went to Hong Kong as a tourist for the last time. I stood next to Victoria Harbor and listened to I have seen the world, down it now.
—
It was so different from the silence on the Bund. I looked into Jin Jiasu's eyes. It was a difficult road to go from a single person to a couple. We all crawled towards a bright future and reunited with each other in the eyes of the sword of fate.
He was pointing the camera at me, spying on me through the small gap. The flash of neon lights was rejected by these eyes. I stared at him through the dark lens with the same feeling, staring at a soul that sympathized with me. After I met Jin Jiasu, I no longer avoided my own smile, and no longer shed tears all day long. He was alone from beginning to end, so he told me on the first night:
Liao Fan, my life consists of a quarter of ideals, a quarter of reality, and two-quarters of myself. I want to share these two-quarters with you.
I was defeated and told him, please call me by your name, do you know why, Jin Jiasu, when you call yourself, on this road, we have someone who also feels precious from the bottom of my heart.
Take a picture of me. The evening breeze in summer is very gentle. The weather in Victoria Harbor is never too cold. I know I am very beautiful. Jin Jiaxu, please take a picture of me. I swallowed my floating tears and shouted, just like the year when I went to Russia with Jin Jiasu to see the bright red river. He chased him all over the house angrily. In the end, both of them fell to the ground. There was also an expensive camera, and there were black spots on the lens. It was the one he was holding in his hand. He said, Liao Fan, the pain is over. Use this camera to treasure the imperfections of the past. When you have the burden, I will take it out to laugh at you.
Cheap swish.
Understanding Russia's past is because we have reached a lot of consensus, including this, to feel the spirit of the land, the necessary or indispensable historical connection, a lot of mess, and for example, to feel a life, you should return to the place where it was born, rather than exploit it.
Hong Kong is a good city. The soil and water support people. I have liked black hair and red lips since I was a child. When I came here, my tears fell on the sea and broke into my heart, which was bursting with all kinds of strong emotions as I cried with joy. My chest was beating. I could feel my life, ideals, courage, principles, and dignity, all of which moved me without modification.
My headphones cut to Zhang Xuan's city, and my memories at night were of the rivers flowing back and forth during the day, and the songs on the radio at the moment.
There are many meaningful conjunctions to form sentences. Jin Jiaxu, I want to do a lot of meaningless things, write meaningless copy, say meaningless words, go crazy meaninglessly, plant flowers in the desert, and run wildly on the grassland.
When I was drunk, I lit up the lamp and read the sword. I dreamed about the company's camp where the horns were blown. Eight hundred miles away, my subordinates were being burned. The sound of fifty strings being turned over the Great Wall was heard. The soldiers were ordered in autumn on the battlefield.
I am not a good boy, youth is a wild chase, I like to fight here, I long for the kind of game life, I am the mainstay of this life, my love flows slowly around, what I hate turns into a ladder for me to go on stage to sing, my world is a river of blood, but the sword that cuts off the flag that wishes me down will also prop up my spine when the false doomsday comes again, I want to be remembered in history.
In August 2026, the Law School of the University of Hong Kong sent me an email to congratulate me on my new life. Jin Jiaxu and I kissed goodbye at the Hongqiao Airport. I turned sideways and looked at him deeply and earnestly for the last time. No matter in the future, I wish him well and wish me well. We all deserve to live a better life.
It was a new kind of stupidity, a new kind of hell, and it was hard to live with files flying everywhere.
Such difficulties are about to come. When my mind catches this, the blood in my body is boiling.
I'm very excited.
The kiss goodbye between Jin Jiasu and I was short and urgent, like the first footsteps echoing on the corridor. Our look at each other was deep and penetrating, confused and sad, bastard and charming. Except for the pain that makes our lives spin in circles, we have everything.
To death to life.
By the way, he graduated from junior high school and did not take the college entrance examination. He started from scratch in the swamps of a small county town and met me in Shanghai.
I wrote the first line in my diary when I got on the plane:
Please look at people's future potential and the present success with a straight face. Please don't always use the past to defend your prejudices. Act in accordance with the law, investigate in accordance with the law, make judgments in accordance with the law, and be morally cautious.
Intention: I wish we all have healthy love
