The year Xie Yang died, I was 22 years old and had just celebrated my birthday.
I am a person who is very afraid of pain, which is probably why I have liked Xie Yang for so long but never confessed my feelings.
Don't laugh, it really hurts if you fail to express your love.
Xie Yang and I have known each other for so long that I always feel that he belongs to me alone. We have plenty of time to take our time and slowly grow from good friends to an old husband and wife.
I like Xie Yang, which is something almost all our mutual friends know, but I have never admitted it in front of Xie Yang.
Even when he stood up for me and injured a famous gangster in the school, and the school asked his parents, I was still crying and scolding him to see if he was sick and if he wanted me to die of guilt.
Xie Yang was standing next to me at that time, and suddenly he put his arms around me and hugged me tightly.
He said: "Because I like you. I like you. How can I bear it when I know someone is harassing you."
At that moment, I suddenly felt that I had become mute and couldn't make a sound. I was in a hurry and couldn't make a sound. The world was chaotic and I could only hear my own heartbeat.
"Bang bang bang -" one after another, the sound was deafening.
I always thought that this was the best beginning for our story.
Although the process in the middle was a bit tortuous, although maybe he didn't like me as much as I liked him, although I couldn't hold back my temper and always quarreled with him and called him a fool.
But it doesn't matter, we have plenty of time, I can slowly coax him and slowly like him.
But he didn't give me this chance.
Before leaving me, Xie Yang said goodbye to me seriously. He said: "Xia He, I know you really want to see the aurora, and I also know you really want to go to Iceland, but I can't wait any longer, and I don't want to take you there, because I know that you are so delicate and you will not be able to stand the weather there.
"I'm sorry, I broke my promise. I can't take you there. Don't forgive me or remember me. Find someone better than me to accompany you for me and see the scenery you want to see. "
He is going to die.
My Xie Yang is dying.
And I couldn't do anything but sit next to him and cry. I could only cry.
The day he left, I secretly hid one of his clothes.
I lied to myself that Xie Yang was just traveling to a distant place and he would come back.
Xie Yang, you will come back, right?
Purpose: Mutual redemption
