Newbie on the road to my favorite boy.
There is a description of childhood "childhood sins", which is adapted from the character of "Disqualified in the World", but not completely copied.
I particularly like Ms. Lei's song and thought it suited Jae Jae very well, so I quoted it.
The following:
① It is a sudden inspiration, and updates are random.
②There are many private settings, character OOC warning
③cp double black, but do not poke the window series
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patrol る patrol る see the world がむ,
(The cycle goes on and on, unable to see clearly the world in front of me,
end ぐるぐる もうTerminatorをつ? )
Turn, turn, turn, do you want to end these days?
きて きて きて いるの，
(Am I alive, alive, alive?
Suck it out,
Breathe in and exhale repeatedly,)
Hide the pain and pay the pain,
(continuing to be injured again,
It hurts and pays. It hurts and pays.
I don't want to be hurt, but I get hurt,)
Servant who is the servant?
(I gradually don't understand what I live for.
The distance between the mouth and the mouth is noisy,
The reason why the child didn't come home,)
どうせうはずもないを,
(Anyway, no matter what the dream is, it will never come true.
りるの Whose かのむをすもいて,
Who smiles and sheds tears under the whirling stars,)
Uneasy chest をよぎる see る, know る, うちにくなることもあるよ,
(With what I see and think, I understand the hard work involved and feel uneasy in my heart,
だとしてもそう なんとかきていけるようにでるよ,
Even so, I still work hard to live and love,)
ダメでメでメでメダメなPUを,
I am incompetent in this mode.
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"Ah, it turns out you like my eyes."
It's a pity that there is only nothingness in his eyes.
"Oh my, this is such a touching friendship."
It's a pity that he doesn't believe in forever.
"Now, I'm looking forward to death."
It's a pity that death does not belong to him.
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"Why not?" The young man smiled, without any smile.
For Osamu Dazai, this world is boring and rotten.
Intention: Finished