Twilight Snow Extra

Mo Jingjun's inner confession. My name is Mo Jingjun. My birth was wrong from the start. My mother was pregnant with me when she was pregnant, but because my brother liked his younger siblings, my parents were still willing to keep me for my brother, even though they knew they had to pay a fine. When I was about to be born, people from the birth control team came to the house to arrest my mother. My mother had no choice but to take my brother to my grandma's house to hide, but my mother's water broke on the way. Later, my mother had a difficult time giving birth to me at my grandma's house, but my brother was lost. When I was born, my face was bruised from suffocation. My grandma patted me for a long time before I started crying. My mother didn't even look at me and threw me at my grandma's house. Because it was autumn when I was born, and Ji Shinian next door was reciting the text "You must remember the good times of the year, the most orange-yellow-orange-green time." Grandma thought Jingjun sounded nice, so she named me Jingjun. And because my grandma's surname was Mo, I followed her surname Mo and called me Mo Jingjun. It was not easy to feed me when I was a child, so my grandma would tie me to the waist of her pants and use her own body temperature to keep me warm. As I grew older, even if she could no longer hold me, whenever I asked her for a hug, she would hold me up and pick me up. , Patting me like a baby, "Little ancestor! Grandma won't be able to hold you in a few more years. You have to grow up quickly! Support grandma!" In fact, I later learned that she was afraid that she would not be able to support me after she left. Later, when the Chinese New Year was approaching, Ji Shinian was born in the courtyard next door. Because the Chinese New Year was approaching, Ji Shinian was called Ji Shinian. When he grew up, he always complained that his name was chosen too hastily, and he would call it Nian every year. If it was Beginning of Winter, he would probably call it Shidong, and the beginning of Spring would be called Shichun. He always clamored to change his name, but after being beaten by his sister, he no longer clamored to change his name. As we grew older, we could run, so I took Ji Shinian to play with me. We would go hunting for mulberries with the children in the village, making our clothes and faces purple. Sometimes we would eat too much and sleep until midnight, with unstoppable nosebleeds. When we were older, we were not satisfied with looking for mulberries at first. Ji Shinian and I would be naughty and playful, catching frogs by the river, catching jumping toads on the road, tying their feet, and quarreling them like adults do with children before letting them go. The skin of toads is poisonous, and we were allergic to it for a month. From then on, we ran away whenever we saw a toad. On my tenth birthday, my father came to pick me up. He looked very stern and walked with a bulging belly. He looked very much like the old principal of our elementary school at that time. But the old principal looked very kind when he saw us, while my father would only glare at me fiercely. Grandma looked very happy. She put on new clothes for me, braided some braids for me with flower cloth, and applied two pieces of plateau red on my face with red rouge. Her tone was full of expectation, "Finally your dad is looking forward to it, and you can go to the city to enjoy the blessings in the future." Later, I learned that once I had a nightmare, I unconsciously called dad. Mom and Dad, my grandma feels sorry for me that I haven't been with my parents since I was a child. I begged my mom and dad several times to let them take me to the city to visit and stay for a few days on my tenth birthday. Grandma thought very well. She felt that for an obedient and sensible child like me, my parents would fall in love with me after just a few days of contact, and they would leave me in the city to enjoy themselves like a sister I had never met before. There was a small seat in front of my father's bicycle, but he wouldn't let me touch it. He gave me the back seat. Tears flashed in my eyes, and she was afraid that I would fall off the back seat. She took a long rope from the house, tied me up, and tied it around my father's waist. Ji Shinian had mud on his hands and wanted to pull me down to play with him and mud. I was very happy, but I pretended to be dead and told him, "I'm leaving. There will be a lot of fun things in the future, so I won't play with him or mud anymore." "Then when will you come back? I'll pick you up!" Ji Shinian asked me with his face raised. "I won't come back, the big city is beckoning." He cried, and I couldn't help it. Who asked me to play with him since he was a child, and when I left, I was afraid that no one would play with him anymore, so I stuffed the candy my grandma gave me quietly into his mouth, warning him, "Stop crying, or this candy will be mine." When he heard what I said, he quickly closed his mouth and tasted the candy. He tasted the sweetness and stopped crying. Later, when my father was riding away on his bicycle, he chased after me and told me not to leave. I was just regretful that I was too far away from him and couldn't put candy in his mouth, otherwise he wouldn't cry. The floors in the new home are clean and cool. The mother I saw in the photo was as cold to me as the photo. She was holding her little sister. Her little sister's clothes were so beautiful, like the clothes worn by Barbie on TV. My mother looked at me indifferently. I called her mother, but she wouldn't let me enter the house with my shoes on. She asked me to put on shoe covers on my bare feet. I feel that the ground is so cold. When I was at my grandma's house, my grandma never let me stand on the ground with bare feet. She said that standing on the ground with bare feet would make me catch cold easily and cause diarrhea. But dad went in with his shoes on. The lunch meal was very rich, but I couldn't reach the meat I liked. I wanted to stand up and pick up the meat, but I remembered what my grandma told me before she left. They asked me to behave better in front of my parents, so I didn't stand up to pick up the meat. I only ate the green vegetables placed in front of me. After dinner, they went to put my sister to sleep, leaving me alone in the living room. My father seemed to hate me. When he saw me watching TV there, he turned off the TV before coaxing my sister to leave. I could only look out the window in boredom. The home at that time was on the 10th floor. Looking outside from a distance through the window, the buildings outside were like green onions planted by my grandma, growing one after another. Dad came out of the room. When he saw me looking outside, he cursed me fiercely, "If you want to die, go die outside. That's what your grandma taught you. If you don't get what you want, you will die." I don't understand what he means. I never want to get anything. Maybe he feels that I want to get his attention, but I feel that he is too stupid. Although he is my father, I feel that I am not familiar with him at all. Why should I get his attention? He seems to be a bit narcissistic. I didn't want him to say that to grandma, and retorted to him, "I just want to see the outside, so I'm standing here. Grandma never taught me to seek life and death." My father was even more angry. He said that I "didn't learn well at a young age. I didn't listen to what adults said, so I just talked back." I felt that the city was not fun at all, so I opened the door and walked out on my own. As a result, he stood in the living room, pointed at me and said, "If you leave today, don't even think about entering this house again. From now on, you can go wherever you want and see who wants you." It was more cliched than the lines in the TV series. I put on my shoes and ran. The road was very wide and there were many cars. I didn't know the way home, but I knew my grandma's name and the name of the village at that time. So I walked and asked. I only asked my kind sister and aunt for directions. Thanks to the vegetables at noon, I didn't feel hungry even after walking for a long time. When we arrived in front of my grandma's village, it was getting dark. There were a lot of haystacks piled up at the entrance of our village. Some of the haystacks were taller than the trees. The road was pitch black. I was scared at the time, but I had no choice but to bite the bullet and walk. When I passed by a haystack, it kept making noises. It couldn't be a ghost! I think. When I was young, Ji Shinian and I stayed up late at night to catch ghosts in the cemetery. As a result, our parents caught us and beat us up, which gave us nightmares for several days. I was just about to go over and take a look when I saw a foot stretched out there, like the shoes Ji Shinian wore this morning. Looking over there again, I saw Ji Shinian sleeping in the haystack like a little pig. I was tired, sleepy and hungry at the time. When I saw Ji Shinian, I couldn't hold it back and started crying in grievance. Ji Shinian woke up. His eyes were bright and he looked very happy. He asked me, "Why are you coming back now? I've been waiting for you for a long time and I fell asleep." I actually had no shame in saying that I was kicked out, so I lied to him and said, "I miss you, and I will come back to see you." Ji Shinian was very touched and said, "I knew you would come back. I waited for my family to fall asleep and then sneaked out. I was afraid that you wouldn't be able to see me when you came back. I was afraid." I was so moved at the time that I gave him all the candies I had with me and asked him to promise that he would never leave me in the future. He was very happy to see Tang and said "I will always be by your side. " I made up my mind at that time that I would never go back to that home again, so I spent time with my grandma and Ji Shinian. But my grandma cried when she saw me. At that time, she could no longer hold me, but she still held me in her arms and said, "Jing Jun, what are you going to do next!" If I leave, no one will support you. " I went to wipe my grandma's tears and said, "I will support you. " When I was in junior high school, I found that I fell in love with Ji Shinian, but he was still like a little kid, careless all day long. I kept my love in my heart. Although he had promised me that he would never leave me, I was still afraid that Ji Shinian would abandon me one day like my parents. I would become unreasonable and test him from time to time. He was always playful and smiling, and did not take my unreasonable troubles to heart. I liked him more and more. Later, after reading online novels, I tried to write a novel about my love for him. The book was called "Mountain Snow", just because it snowed on the day he was born. The prejudice of my parents was a mountain that I could not climb in my life. Later, I don't know what happened, but he actually knew that I was writing a novel and saw my novel. In fact, I was quite nervous at the time. Only later did I realize that I was overthinking it. He was too stupid. He always thought that the male supporting character in the book was him, and he kept pestering me. He wrote a good ending, but I didn't want to. I specifically chose the worst ending for the male supporting character. After he found out, he ignored me for a few days. Later, I don't know if he had figured it out and started to please me and asked me to change an ending for him. I said I would give it to him when I had time. In fact, he belongs to the male protagonist, but he doesn't know it. Later, he fell in love with the drum set. His parents felt that it was useless to learn this if he was not doing a serious job, so they refused to let him learn. In order to save for tuition, I accompanied him to pick up rags. But he was too proud. After learning how to play the drum, he started taking me to commercial performances, and he gradually saved up money. Later, I felt that riding a motorcycle was so cool, so we each saved up and bought one. Intention: Very good