Narcissus Wen protects oneself from lightning.
I was very contradictory. I wanted to kill myself, but I was asking for help. I heard my distress signal, so I frantically searched for anything that could keep me, but I couldn't find it. Or to put it simply, there was nothing that could keep me.
But then you appeared. That was the first time I realized your existence. It was so clear.
So from that moment on, I knew I had found it, but I also knew clearly that the effect was actually minimal. I could kill myself at any time. To put it simply, I walked towards another abyss.
I also know very well that this time I will definitely end up here. I will continue to sink without any room for change.
Because I love you willingly
Intention: learning