This is a 140,000-word original novel that I started writing in 1986 and completed in 1997. It describes a young life's sense of dissoluteness, pity, confusion, and the sense of being unable to control and move its own body. In the 1970s, Ximen Yu, an educated youth who was sent down to the countryside, lived alone in a thatched hut in a corner of the countryside. One day, the brigade suddenly transferred an educated youth named Shi Xin to their village, and arranged to live with Ximen Yu. In the same room, the two men's hearts were intertwined, and time went by. The whole body is bright, and the other is that the mind is inconsistent. For a year, Ximen Yu's heart was full of emotions, and he wanted to live. He was in the light and in the dark, endless mediocrity and affection. Later, during a job recruitment, Shi Xin returned to the provincial capital, leaving Ximen Yu depressed and lonely. Later, Ximen Yu also recruited workers and returned to his hometown city, and met Ximen Yu met a person named Meng Jing who had the same heart as him, and the two went back and forth endlessly. However, Ximen Yu often felt ashamed, confused, and couldn't find peace in her heart, so she broke off the relationship with Meng Jing. After a period of time, she couldn't bear the torment in her body and reconciled with Meng Jing. Although the two of them were safe, However, in the ethics of marriage between a man and a woman, the world's eyes, the family's eyes, and the original inner confusion - the vastness and insignificance of heaven and earth, life, finally had no choice but to commit suicide, ending this soft and lingering life. The sky was high and the clouds were flowing, and the two of them disappeared forever.
Also, although this is an alternative novel, I wrote it with a compassionate literary consciousness. It is a pure Chinese-style homosexual tragedy, a real literary novel. (Pure line drawing technique) The characters in the book are "often naked and the moon is spinning, and they are wailing in search of the sun," Shi Pian Traveling along the passage of life through the ages, and constantly searching for the flow of all things in heaven and earth, the Chinese words in the book are a collection of traditional Chinese literary forms, including poems, lyrics, tunes, rhymes, songs, riddles, and legends. The taste is high, both vulgar and elegant, and it is a human "life and death" worth seeing and thinking about.
I was born in 1956, and I really want someone to read my "Life and Death Group" - a story about the desolate, thin and rough body of a homosexual in the 1970s when the afterimage is about to fade away.
Purpose: Love life