"I'm not cold, I'm just used to silence."
White-cut black heroine x low self-esteem and crazy criticizing creator
Chen Sui'an was involved in a staged "stage play" just because he died suddenly while playing an otome game. The OOC protagonists and the eyes hidden in the dark made her long-suppressed emotions begin to surge again.
The seemingly amiable stepbrother, the indifferent doctor, the redeemed mad dog, and the gentle and scumbag fiancé, all of them have undergone earth-shaking changes, showing their completely different sides, but Chen Sui'an did not take it seriously, and was only interested in those resentful but twinkling eyes.
Zhou Shiyan watched Chen Sui'an resist again and again in silence, and she revised Chen Sui'an's ending again and again until she was satisfied. She created her, shouldn't she follow her established plot? A lover who loves her, a friend who will always favor her, and parents who dote on her. Zhou Shiyan gave her everything she didn't have but didn't understand why Chen Sui'an resisted her plot. Zhou Shiyan couldn't understand.
It wasn't until Chen Sui'an pulled her down from the high platform that she realized that what she wanted was her - Zhou Shiyan's love, her own love. She wants her to love herself as much as Chen Sui'an loves her.
Only Chen Sui'an would lean into her ear and whisper to her: "I don't want you to die for anyone, I want you to live for yourself."
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It is said that the author's OC will look like himself, then:
Chen Sui'an is Zhou Shiyan who reconciles with himself. Zhou Shiyan is Chen Sui'an who hates herself.
Lesbian hate
Purpose: Reconciliation with oneself is the ultimate proposition of life