Hopelessly

Use Xuan as jade and jade as love. Memories of the past How long do you think a person's love can last? He and I used to have a heart-to-heart, but we were enemies and we were not allowed to date. I once made a promise that I would never marry him except him. When I was a child, I just accidentally ran out of the city and met him. We were separated by a wall, but it felt like we had never met each other in this life. My father asked me to study since I was a child. I am the youngest child in the family. My name is Chang Xuan. My parents love me very much. I have been asked to learn all kinds of etiquette that girls should learn since I was a child. My father said that he would not dare to hold me when I was born. He said that I was as fragile and beautiful as jade. Use Xuan as jade and jade as love. Although I am the youngest child, my father has not doted on me since I was a child. I have two sisters, one named Chang Qing and the other named Chang Nuo. Qing means upbringing and Nuo means promise. The two sisters are also very good to me. The eldest sister used to be a teacher, and the second sister studied piano, chess, calligraphy and painting at home. I was still young at the time, and my parents only let me learn etiquette as a tutor. When I was a child, my second sister took me out to escape from my elder sister's teachings. She memorized and studied every day, which made me feel helpless. At that time, the second sister couldn't figure out the way home, so she accidentally took me to the edge of the city. The edge of the city was not as beautiful as I imagined. I once heard the eldest sister say that there was a willow tree here. Later, because of the war between the two cities, a barbed wire fence was used to separate the two cities. The willow trees were cut down and used as wood to separate the two cities. I squatted next to the barbed wire and played with ants. Suddenly, a dark shadow came over me. I looked up and saw a boy coming over. I asked him, "What's wrong?" He replied: "Not really, I got separated from my brother, so I came here." I said, "Oh, I got separated too." He added: "Look at these ants coming from your place to mine." "Yes, I want to visit your place too." I said, provoking the ants with a branch. He replied: "I would also like to visit your place sometime." "I don't know either." I can only say this, because I don't know when it will be possible. Later, we talked a lot and agreed to meet here on the 24th of every month. At this time, my eldest sister came back. She yelled at me: "Axuan, you can just skip class, but you still come to the city. Do you know that if dad knows that you are coming to the city, he won't scold us to death." A man came next to the boy and said, "Axuan, why are you here?" At that time, I saw the eldest sister and the man over there looking at each other. The man saw that the eldest sister was obviously stunned, with unresolved emotions in his eyes, while the eldest sister opened her mouth, but did not speak. My eldest sister said, "Go home." I looked at the boy over there. His name turned out to be "Axuan". The two of us looked at each other and were pulled away Later, I remembered that on the way back, the eldest sister said that because the second sister took me to skip classes, she was already kneeling as punishment. I only remember that I knelt with the second sister all night. In the middle of the night, the eldest sister even gave us sugar porridge to drink. I remember that it was the sweetest and most delicious porridge I have ever tasted. We went together for several years. I remember I was nine years old at the time, and we went together for seven years. We met on the 24th of every month. I remember the last time he said to me, "I'm getting married." I didn't know if I should be happy or unhappy at the time. I remember saying, "Then... Can you come again in the future?" "I don't know, but if I don't come next month, then you won't come here anymore," he said. "Okay, then I'm leaving. Now I'm going home to study." I remember thinking he was just joking, but I almost believed it myself. Later, I came as usual on the 24th of the next month. I particularly remember that it was February 24th when he didn't come. I stayed there for a long, long time and he didn't come. I kept looking around but couldn't see him. We went to each other for seven years, and I went alone for one year. I thought I should be myself and forget about him, but then I listened to the conversation between the second sister and the eldest sister. The eldest sister said: "Nuo'er, do you know the Ah Xuan from before?" "I know, Xuan'er has played with him before, but isn't he married?" The second sister wondered. "Yes, but now I know that he died a few days before the wedding," said the eldest sister. "What? His sons are all so talented and educated, so why are they so hard to think about?" Said the second sister. "Oh, I don't know, I don't know." The eldest sister, "His eldest son is not married either. I heard he is waiting for a woman he cannot be with," said the second sister. At that time, I didn't listen to what the eldest sister and the second sister said. I opened the door. I remember that day was the 24th. I am much calmer now than I was then. The eldest sister also said: "Xuan'er, the porridge is ready, drink it." I remember that I didn't drink porridge that day, and I didn't drink it after that, because after I left, my eldest sister died. My eldest sister had been in poor health since she was a child. She didn't drink porridge afterwards, and I didn't have to drink porridge in the future. There was no eldest sister who could make porridge for me anymore. I ran to the place we had agreed upon, and suddenly I slowed down and walked slowly over, recalling the past memories, and I didn't know what to do. Later, I didn't believe that he was dead, and he passed away for another year. I remember I went there on February 24th. I often like spring the most, when everything comes to life. Later, it rained that day when I went there. It was very light, but it rained for a long time. After returning home, I found out that my eldest sister had died. I regretted what I had done. Yesterday, I heard people say that there was a love interest in the Song family in the outer city. Later I found out that his name was Song Yun, with the courtesy name Lingxuan. The day before yesterday, I met a person. Although it was a bit offensive, it really seemed like I had been staring at you for a long time... "Girl? Girl? Why do you keep looking at my husband? "Women. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to offend, it's just... He looks like an old friend of mine. "Myself. "Hello, girl, I'm glad that you will remember your old friend when you see me, but my wife and I are going back, so please give in. "Man. "Okay, I'm sorry," I lowered my head in panic to make way for them, but something suddenly occurred to me and stopped him. "Please can you tell me your name, I feel like I know you. "Myself. "I'm sorry, girl, we don't know each other, but my surname is Song. "Man. I was stunned at that time, but later I quickly said thank you. I remember he said later, "If we are destined to meet again, we will meet again." Now I am 19 years old, and I often think that if he were still alive, he would be 23 years old. Later, I remember that I sat outside the house for a long time that day. I drank the porridge made by my second sister, but it was not as sweet as the eldest sister's. Obviously my second sister also put a lot of sugar, but it was not sweet at all. I ended my life in the simplest way, drinking porridge. The person I am most sorry for is my family. Use Xuan as jade and jade as love. I once gave you a piece of jade, but I don't know what happened to it. Everything is rare and everything is hard to come by. February 24 See him again on the grounds that he has been reborn. A person's love for another person has changed from the previous life to this life. She is looking forward to meeting him, but she doesn't know what to do after meeting him. She doesn't know whether to give up the past or continue to fall in love with the person she once liked. Although I am looking up without any expectations, I believe that we will meet each other if we are destined. Every character is unique, and they are always the protagonists in their stories. The novel is mainly based on real time, and updates will be very slow. Thank you for your understanding. Don't believe in rumors, just seek truth from facts. Just focus on loving and liking it. Thank you very much to those who like it. There is always a time to meet when we like each other, and there is always a time to meet again when we are apart. Intention: