Selfishness

The main text has been completed. Extras will be dropped from time to time. The main text will be gradually refined, but not too much. Thank you to my readers who have been with me! Thank you very much! —————————————————————————————— [Stand-in literary heroine + cellist male protagonist] When she was eighteen years old, she went to Sweden to study under the name Chen Jiang. It's too cold in Northern Europe, and it's so cold that everything is desolate. But she liked it very much. Not only was it the Nordic country that her father longed for, it was also very suitable for her lonely and helpless self. Like any snow scene in Northern Europe, the most inconspicuous little snowflake, who would care. Deng Lin has a pair of blue eyes, which came from his mother. He is naturally tall and artistic, which attracts many people, including her. She couldn't tell her name was Chen Jiang, so her friend did it for her and introduced the two of them. When they broke up, she told him her real name, Shen Wanjiang. After Mr. Deng passed away, she became intertwined with him again. The feeling between the two was really not like that of her ex-boyfriend and girlfriend who had been separated for many years. To use the words she used to introduce them to their friends, they were simply a couple who had been at odds with each other after being married for many years. She couldn't help but laugh, thinking it was a joke. ————————————— Before Deng Lin was eighteen years old, his family's neglect made him unable to feel love, so he never felt that he had a heart for loving others. It's not that no one tried to make good contact with him, but he politely refused, until the moment he met Shen Wanjiang in Sweden. Something collapsed in her heart. Her brown-black eyes were like a forest raging through a strong wind. Deng Lin accidentally caught a glimpse of the green vitality under her cold and distant appearance. After the two were together, Deng Lin was often intoxicated by her smiles and kisses. In the middle of winter in Northern Europe, he absorbed the warmth from her, like a person who finally caught a driftwood in the sea and never wanted to let go. When he was twenty-three years old, he wanted to propose to her, but after arriving in Sweden, he received a breakup message from her. He respected her choice and also learned her real name "Shen Wanjiang". After returning to China, he returned to the cold home again, looked at the engagement ring, and had hallucinations. It was not until he fainted in front of his brothers that he discovered that his mental illness was serious. After getting back together, Deng Lin tried his best to hide it, but Shen Wanjiang still noticed it, and drugs were piled in front of the two of them. He had no way to deny it, and he didn't dare to look directly at his sick heart. He could only promise that he would take her to visit his attending doctor. After getting engaged, after meeting his attending doctor, she was infinitely tolerant of him. He felt that something was wrong and shouldn't be like this, but he was also deeply attracted by her tenderness. Shen Wanjiang felt guilty, and he felt sorry for every look she looked at him. After his birthday, she wanted to have lunch with him at the company and give him his birthday gift along the way, but she suffered a car accident and suffered a brief amnesia. Every time Deng Lin thought about it many years later, she felt extremely regretful. If she had let go in Northern Europe, maybe she wouldn't have to suffer all this at all. But can we really let go? He always has his own selfish motives. ————————————— Pre-receipt: "Your Reply" "Among the stars, I have been waiting for your reply." Intention: a firm choice