A boy with low self-esteem thinks he is in love with a perfect senior, but it is not perfection, nor is it "love".
It is your own fault to bear the bite of emotions.
Why do you blame him? He doesn't know anything. It's you who insists on trying to force your feelings on him. The whole world is unsatisfactory, and everyone is imperfect. It just happened to be scratched by a sharp notch.
Intention: Study hard and make progress every day. Think rationally and reflect on yourself.