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At the beginning of the story, I stabbed the bamboo horse I had secretly loved for a long time through the heart and let him fall. In his unbelievable eyes, I took the arm of Tianlai and walked away.
No one knows that the young man lying on the cold ground and insisting on smiling at me is the person who has taken care of me tenderly since childhood, the person who understands me best in the world, the person who will always support me, and the person I have long recognized as the lover of this life.
The temperature of the blood penetrated my skin and burned all the way to my heart, but I could only cuddle up next to another person like a puppet and smile heartlessly.
Later, I finally understood that this was a book about sadomasochism, and I was just one of the cannon fodder characters. In the end, I was reduced to ashes and reviled by thousands of people. Everything was arranged by the words in the book. My actions cannot be controlled by me, my feelings cannot be controlled by me, and my destiny cannot be controlled by me.
But I don't believe in fate, and I insist on going against fate.
Intention: Give full play to subjective initiative and create your own future.