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On an autumn night, He Shaoqi and I sat on the bed and watched the falling sycamore leaves outside.
He suddenly asked me: "If I hadn't chosen you at that cocktail party, what would you do now?"
I leaned in his arms and said with a smile: "Maybe I will become the mistress of a certain boss at the cocktail party."
He lowered his head and looked at me quietly.
I noticed his gaze, but without raising my head, I just said, "I was short of money at that time, and I would follow anyone who could give me money."
He hugged me tighter and kissed me tenderly. He said he was lucky he chose me.
I hugged him back, feeling sweet in my heart, but I also felt lucky that He Shaoqi believed what I said and that he didn't know that I had been someone else's lover.
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I did one wrong thing, but I never regretted it. Sometimes when I think back, I feel despicable.
He Shaoqian was my high school classmate, and I even helped him chase Qiao Jinyi, the class beauty next door.
Qiao Jinyi and I are very good friends, and I know many things about her.
But I didn't tell He Shaoqi that Qiao Jinyi actually liked someone, and it was impossible for her to pretend to be someone else.
As I expected, after the college entrance examination, He Shaoqi failed to confess his love.
And I am the culprit. I know that he will hate me when he knows the truth. Since I have already done something wrong, I might as well be bolder.
Watching him drink bottle after bottle of wine, I finally swallowed the bitterness in my heart and kissed his lips in the dim light.
I am such a despicable person. I took advantage of him when he was most vulnerable and took away his most precious things. In the end, I didn't even have a trace of regret. I just put on my clothes, buttoned them up and pretended that nothing happened.
Taking advantage of the darkness of the night, I secretly left the city where I grew up and wandered alone in a foreign land.
Later, my life was not satisfactory. I suffered a lot. Many times I wondered if this was God's punishment for me, asking me to atone for the wrong things I had done.
PS demining:
1. First person essay
2. The woman is not a man, but it is the first time for each other
3. Reunion after a long separation, super invincible bullshit, and the crematorium for chasing his wife
4. There are some male protagonists in it, and there is a second male lead who plays a very important role in the heroine's life, but the heroine only likes the male protagonist.
Intention: Work hard and move forward in life
