I Dug My Own Grave at the Crematorium

I died once before realizing that I had made a mistake. No wonder he ended up being thrown into the river in the middle of winter, with no bones left. But in the end, he was unwilling to give in. His soul had no fixed place, and by some strange combination of circumstances, he found another body, and suddenly transformed into the eagle dog in the name of the current emperor. He walked smoothly through the sky, rode across the long street, and was very high-spirited. It was so happy. Then at the banquet, I met Xie Qingyan again. He has become an official in the court, and his colleagues are all praising him. However, when it comes to marriage, he said that he already has the person he likes, but fate has played a trick and passed away early. Later I found out that that night, he was seriously ill and almost died. Then he got up and collected my bones and placed them safely. He also erected a monument and the temple was lit with candles, hoping that I would die soon and return my soul to my hometown. It's like that's the only thing he thinks about for the rest of his life. So I went back to that place. In the seventh year of Suining, I dug my own grave. Note: 1. First person of the text 2. The protagonist is a heartthrob Intention: No matter what, you can see yourself in desperate situations