When you open this autobiography, I think I am dead.
——He Shanliu
Gu Rannian was sorting out his ex-wife's childhood belongings on a whim this evening, and unexpectedly found an old photo full of repair marks and a password-protected notebook with a dark cover. With anxiety and doubts, he entered his ex-wife's birthday, but found that it could not be opened. He also entered his own birthday, wedding anniversary, and the first time they met... Still could not be opened, until he remembered the unknown number that his ex-wife often talked about before. It opened, and also revealed his ex-wife's unknown past. This night, I couldn't sleep all night.
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My name is He Shan, a very bad, bad woman. When the bullet penetrated my skull, I finally breathed a sigh of relief.
[First rebirth]
During the seven days when I was seven years old, I finally stopped being obsessed with my past life. However, time was suddenly cut off. I looked at the blood-stained knife that suddenly appeared in my hand and was taken away in a circle.
Why?
[Second rebirth]
I went back to the age of four and watched a young couple sell me to two old men. Later I finally learned that the young couple were my real biological parents.
Me: What a ridiculous life, why do you need to let me know everything?
[The third rebirth]
I'm in a bar, passed out by someone I trust...
[The fourth rebirth]
I walked on the point of no return again, and the dirty curses and heavy rain overwhelmed me.
[The fifth time, the sixth time... Ninety-eight times, ninety-nine times]
I looked at those people who wanted to swallow me up and sent me to a familiar mental hospital. I laughed like crazy: "Hahahahaha... I understand, I understand everything..."
Intention: It's not me who is sick, right?