Recently, a thought has been lingering in your mind. You think that you who have gone through all the struggles, pains, and unspeakable loneliness before, and finally escaped by chance and ascended to heaven, cannot empathize with yourself who has been confused in thinking and despairing in the past.
This may sound sad, ridiculous, unconventional, and unreasonable, but it may be true.
Now that I have gotten out of the past, I still can't understand why I don't want to sleep night after night, and why I don't want to eat day by day; why I am overwhelmed by unknown emotions, which is extremely painful and without any reason; I don't understand why when I wake up, everything around me suddenly seems so strange, so panicked, as if I can't grasp anything, and so confused that I am still in the world and still alive.
I really want to live hard and seriously, and I think I can do what I want to do, but the final outcome of everything will be unsatisfactory.
I don't understand why this is the case. I want to get rid of this fateful shackles, but every change is in vain in the end. I can't escape the prophecies surrounding me.
Being result-oriented, after repeated setbacks, you will think that everything in the previous path is meaningless. Even if you continue to struggle to move forward, the final result will only be terrible, and everything is just to meet the grand failure at the end.
Intention: There is no miscellaneousness at that time, and there is no love now.