Alive.
Li Si laughed thinking about this word. In this kind of life, he is numb to the passage of time, numb to emotions, numb to everything... But he is still truly alive. He thought that this world was inviolable after all, and it would deal with all those who rebelled against it, including himself.
Li Si stretched out an arm from the quilt, touched the cigarette box, and lit it skillfully.
Li Si did the math and found that he was twenty-seven years old this year.
Every day when Li Si wakes up, he feels like he doesn't know where he is. Also, how could a person like him, who couldn't even see the path under his feet, have a fixed residence? Sometimes Li Si felt very disappointed and had no interest in anything. He was asking himself, why haven't I chosen to die under such a life? He knows the answer because he is not willing to accept it. Even if he falls into such a life, he is still not willing to accept it.
Li Si wants to use time to kill himself.
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