After a long, long time, she realized that her emotions were always delayed. It took so long that those feelings that she had not had time to express to her mouth were almost forgotten. She always thought that it was not important and that there was nothing wrong with living in a hazy life. After all, being sober was a very painful act of self-mutilation.
But she forgot that the reason why it was "unimportant" was because the matter had never been properly resolved, and her emotions were hidden in the dark underground and were already showing signs of overflowing.
She once attributed the strange dreams and the thoughts that invaded her brain all the time to her jumpy thinking and never explored the root cause. She indulged and even enjoyed it. By the time she discovered something was wrong, it was already too late.
She also thought that she might be crazy, but she didn't seem to hate this kind of life.
Maybe... Everything happens for a reason, maybe she knows this...
But everything was in chaos.
Finally, chaos allowed fantasy and reality to intermingle.
There is no fixed cp, just hit it casually
Intention: The contradiction is that what you want in your life is right in front of you but far away.