She plans to resign and go back to her hometown to plant flowers.
She hoped that she could be buried in the same tulip field as her mother.
The tulip rhizome will break through her skin, clog her blood vessels, fill her internal organs, and take root in her soul. It will draw nutrients from her broken body, grow tenaciously, and then bloom prosperously on her corpse.
In the end, they will wither, rot, and wither together with her.
Purpose: Self-salvation