My name is Jiang Xing. I am nineteen years old. I am a freshman in a local second-class university.
I lost my memory since I was sixteen
sixteen, seventeen, eighteen
This should be the most brilliant time in life, right?
But I don't feel any sadness or other negative emotions,
If anything, it's just empty
I reasonably speculate that this is because I have been in so much pain over the past three years.
Losing my memory might be a good thing for me
I feel that my personality is inferior and cowardly, and I always cater to the eyes of others meaninglessly.
I often feel that this society is very indifferent, which makes me feel like I want to escape from time to time.
So I think I'm sick
I start sleeping as soon as there is no class, because sleeping can always let me escape from the world for a short time.
I started to dream frequently, and in the dream was my 16-year-old
I'm not kidding
On the contrary, I am serious
I started trying to communicate with her, but unfortunately I was just a bystander, and I would always forget the dream a few minutes after I woke up.
So every time after I have a dream, I will write it down in writing.
This is probably when I work the hardest
I don't know what's the point of doing this either
But I think I should do it
Just like I have doubted the meaning of the existence of this world countless times, but it still exists
If you are also watching
i wish i could make a friend with you
Oh right
Since we are friends
I want to introduce myself to you
"My name is Jiang Xing"
"Nice to meet you"
"Welcome to my world"
Intention: Self-reliance and self-reliance