My friends told me when I woke up that I was in tragedy, that the tragedy kept looping, and that I could wake up just by experiencing all the tragedy again.
Why do I have so many tragedies?
Because every time I was in a tragedy, I refused to experience the tragedy again. They didn't want to suffer again, but I didn't want to continue the cycle of tragedy. I wanted to experience all the tragedies and then wake up.
In my original world, I jumped off a purple sand building, was sent to the hospital for rescue, and was pushed into the ICU. My soul was temporarily separated from my body, and I came to the Pavilion of the Past. The master of the pavilion personally judged me. I was willing to fall, wasting my life, and being thrown into the void. I experienced tragedies again and again until my heart knot was unraveled.
I came to the first tragedy. I was a mediocre person and a concubine. I always thought that as long as I didn't compete with my legitimate son for the family property, I would be able to spend my life safely. But who knew that my mother died in front of me on my 10th birthday. My eldest brother came to me and said it was him who did it. He gave me a death wish. I should have been like the hero of the novel, arrogantly refusing, and then seizing the family property, but I was just a bastard, and I also knew that I did not have the strength at all. The death of my mother stimulated me, and I collapsed and drank poisoned wine and died.
The second tragedy was that I was an orphan. I thought that without the involvement of relatives, I would definitely be able to live a stable life. However, I was isolated by children of the same age, bullied and humiliated by them.
Later......
Purpose: Decompression