I don't want to die, but they are telling me to die.
His life was "bitter", but perhaps because he was always smiling, it seemed as if everything had nothing to do with him. His silence, his reticence, until his disguise was torn apart, and everyone sympathized with him, but he would still smile and say, "It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter, don't do this, it's disgusting."
ABO series, main and receiver perspective
Purpose: self-training and dream fulfillment