She lacks a sense of reality. Everything that happens in reality is like a drama, and she is just an actor.
How painful it must be to live like this. But death is an unknown terror, and she is afraid of death.
Spend every day in a daze. The feelings he showed and the emotions he "felt" were all deceptions, and he actually deceived himself.
This is what she said to herself.
PS: Although the category is romance, I haven't thought about the emotional line. The author goes crazy and expresses his feelings.
Intention: Find the meaning that supports your life!