I have regretted too many times and failed too many times. How can I accept it again? How ridiculous would it be to continue to fail and then be abandoned? Through repeated bloody lessons, I have already learned to protect myself and know how to cause myself the least harm. You may say I'm selfish, but I'm just numb and don't belong to anyone. Who will remember whom in the next reincarnation? I am the only one who suffers. Why do I have to bear it? Why can't I find my own happiness?
Don't think you are the savior, don't try to change me, don't think you know me.