Facing North and South

It was the first time I heard Faye Wong's lyrics: The more beautiful things are, the more untouchable they are. I actually didn't understand it. When I was in junior high school, I had a happy life and a happy family, and I would work hard to get the things I liked. As I get older, I find that there are generally three outcomes for people who like something: one is not getting it, the other is not getting it, and the third is getting it but never wanting it again. This truth is simply the core of the tragedy in all relationships, coupled with another obsession of mine: human feelings are unreliable, how passionate they are. Emotions will inevitably dissipate in the end, so I am addicted to the feeling during the period when I can't get something. This is also the fundamental reason why I don't want Chang Lin, but my love for her will always be as passionate as ever. At the same time, this is also the theory that Chen Bei once relied on for his strategy. I can't help but sigh, Chen Bei and I are so similar. I couldn't get out of the past, my home had been broken, so when I finished my college entrance examination, I was obsessed with finding a new home. Chen Bei tied me up with Liang Jiangyang, and I tied up Chang Lin with Chen Bei. My home was built. I still think that the home the four of us rented at that time was far better than the home Chen Bei and I have now. I don't like Chen Bei, I love him. I have said that I do not trust relationships between people, but the connection between me and Chen Bei is somewhere between blood ties and the love of ordinary people. This relationship is extremely strong, so I chose Chen Bei. We will never be indifferent to each other, and our family will never break up. Yesterday I glanced at a girl with long curly hair on the overpass. My heart began to beat violently again. I chased her for four streets, but still lost her. At night, I turned my back to Chen Bei and thought about that figure all night long. Was that Chang Lin? Did she come to me specially? After get off work the next day, I made an excuse for myself and wandered around the place where I met the girl yesterday until eleven o'clock in the middle of the night. I drank twelve cups of coffee and I didn't feel sleepy at all. I can't seem to find Chang Lin. I feel like crying. I think of the night when Chang Lin said to me, "We will definitely have a family in the future." I was like this now, burying my head in my elbows, not wanting anyone in the world to guess what my expression was, including myself. I remember that I cried heroically that day, Chang Lin hugged me, and she smelled the delicious scent of jasmine. The warm feeling made me want to cry even more. I cried all the way, and she put her arm around my shoulder and hugged me all the way. The only difference now is that I have lost Chang Lin forever, and my tears will never fall again. Snow fell on my forehead, Chen Bei was waiting for me, it was time for me to go home. Purpose: Control lasts longer than gain