It was autumn again, I was leaning on the rocking chair, the wind blowing on my face did not feel the coolness of this season, I caressed the traces of the years, now I am 65, this is the first year of my retirement, I originally lived a comfortable old age, but my mood at the moment is like this. The fallen leaves in late autumn, a wave of disappointment fell in my heart. In the end, this life is still so sad. It's not that I am a lonely old man, but I lost the heart of my two daughters through inadvertence when I was young. I have always been struggling, regretful, helpless, and lost in my life. I have been constantly quarreling with my parents-in-law, husband, and parents. The two families have always been in mutual dislike and disdain for each other. No matter how I deal with it, the target of the blame is always turned on myself, and I indirectly transfer it to my children. Study, work, and love always bypass me, as if everything is developing in a good direction, they can always cleverly avoid all my luck. When I reach middle age, I have to carry the mortgage loan, look at my husband who fails to live up to his expectations, my in-laws who stand by, and my nagging parents, I have become numb. My daughters used their last filial piety to help me repay the loan, and I also lost them. After all, this family is too suffocating. Looking back on this life, I wonder if I have lived a good life. I was unknowingly annoyed by myself, and the tears of disappointment followed me for most of my life, but I still couldn't escape. So I fell asleep, and the deeper I slept...
Purpose: Don't let life leave any regrets