Gao Quzhi hated the helpless feeling, and even more hated that someone had deceived her and controlled her under the banner of being good to her. Chu Xinzhan is different. He will support her, protect her, comfort her, and even live just for her. However, due to the influence of his native family, Gao Quzhi has never been able to truly show his sincerity to Chu Xinzhan. The two are awkward and care about each other... How Gao Quzhi overcomes the psychological barrier, how Chu Xinzhan becomes her warm light, and how everything will develop.
Part of the plot:
"I really want you to notice me, but will you find me annoying?"
Chu Xinzhan loved Gao Quzhi to the core. He wanted to guard her carefully all the time, but in the end he was unwilling to just guard her carefully. But if she wanted to, so what if she just guarded her carefully from the side.
"Your concern is the biggest motivation for me. I am very happy... You finally... Pay attention to me."
A word of concern from Gao Quzhi would make him happy for the rest of his life, even if there was only one word of concern from her in this life.
"I, Gao Quzhi, was born humble and cowardly. My perseverance is only acquired. How can I be worthy of him?"
Gao Quzhi's autobiography:
I am Gao Quzhi, a person whose family is broken, cowardly, not understood by my relatives, bullied and looked down upon by others. These once made me become a sensitive and please-pleaser person with low self-esteem. Anxiety trapped me all day long, and insomnia accompanied me all night. Under the domestication of my parents, I became less and less like myself, and I could no longer find my true self. After junior high school, I changed. On the contrary, it is quite different from what I was before, but what remains unchanged is the cowardice, low self-esteem, and please-please personality that are engraved in my bones. I can't change what my family has brought me. So when someone treats me well, especially the opposite sex, I always need to consider and test. I hate myself, and I am even more afraid that if I really accept Chu Xinzhan, he will leave me. What should I do? I can only run away from him who is indifferent... I don't want to, but I can't accept him. I'm really in pain...
"Chu Xinzhan, the closer you get to me, the less you will like me; the more I care about you, the less likely it will end well."
-"Gao Quzhi, I don't care about your family! I only care about you! Do you believe in me?"
-"Let me go, Chu Xinzhan..."
Chu Xinzhan's autobiography:
I am Chu Xinzhan, a person who will remember me for the rest of my life because others unconsciously protected me. Why am I so fascinated by Gao Quzhi? This may be a question that you, my friend, will also be confused about. You may also think that I am a licker, but my idea is different: I feel that if someone protects you, she also needs your protection, and you must do your best to protect the other person. By coincidence, she and I were in the same school. I followed Gao Quzhi silently because I wanted to protect her. I never thought that when I saw her broken and fragile side, I couldn't help but want to give her all my love. In the end, I admitted that I loved her with all her advantages and disadvantages, but her repeated alienation also made me give up again and again... I don't know what our final result will be, but at least, I want to make her confident and bright, just like the light she brings to me.
Purpose: I hope someone will protect us who are helpless