I was too young at that time, and I didn't know that cunning and magnanimity, stupidity and wisdom, hypocrisy and integrity can appear in a person. I can't explain my behavior. I want to be a gentleman, but I am a hypocrite. I covet my father's wife but neglect my own wife. Now that I am dying, I feel that life is disappearing as quickly as quicksand. How I hope that she will feel ripples in her heart when she hears the news of my death, but why? Who is she to me? My stepmother, I want her to be sad for me, but I don't want her to be sad for my father's sadness. At the last moment of my life, I felt like a golden Buddha statue that had been overthrown and burned. The imprisonment of the world, the pride of Tan Hwa Lang, and the gaze of my father were all wiped out with the sound of "pop--". If there is an afterlife, I will be a true villain and never miss the light of my youth, my lover, my lover who is as bright as the morning glow.
Purpose: Be loyal to your heart, and be the right person when you are right.