Substitute, betrayal, abandonment
Bai Ning often wonders how she ends up living like the sadistic heroine in the novel. She couldn't find the point in persisting, so she just wanted to die. But she found that she seemed to be unable to die. There was a voice in her dream telling her to help others and save others, but how could she save others if she couldn't even save herself? Until she discovered that she seemed to be able to see something that others couldn't...
In the process of helping others again and again, she gained companions and found the meaning of life.
Intention: Life is a long river, why should you wrong yourself? Just move forward and savor the short few decades that belong to you in all aspects of life.