At first, I simply wanted to record my high school life as a novel. Who knew that after a month of persistence, I couldn't continue writing. Maybe it was due to lack of motivation. (Later I met Mr. Cao) I put it aside for about two or three months. During an exam, I had nothing to do, so I wrote down a few short clips between me and Mr. Cao on the draft paper. Who knew I couldn't hold on to this writing. There were about twenty or so jokes in total, and I added some later. I persisted until the breakup in June. Basically, this is the story of "Claw Machine". The dreamy and wonderful feeling of a teenager and a girl, like catching a doll, is a true portrayal of me diving in and drowning in it at that time.
I must have been a little disappointed after the breakup. I always thought of him, couldn't understand him, and couldn't convince myself. The war between heaven and man in my mind was the norm during that period of "difficulty in settling down". In his behavior and reactions, I guessed, thought, and found some sweet spots for myself. While I liked him, my heart was hanging in the air, as if I couldn't pick it up and couldn't put it down. I wasn't sure or believed it, but I always hoped and doubted it. It could be regarded as "like to be cautious". I admit that I like to think wildly, but I still can't control it. This state of affairs was broken when the young lady told me, "Your life shouldn't be like this." I decided to ask him for help - fortunately, he really liked me. I finally calmed down. Although there were conflicts, big and small, I stepped on the ground and was no longer afraid of missing the mark.
After that, it was "Fine Water and Warm Sun", and we became an old married couple with a sweet daily life. The boring high school life was because he added sugar, but it also had its bitterness - classmate Cao's personal factors. I can only hope that it will be over soon so that I can be "together" with him again when I graduate (to be honest, I don't know if we have broken up). I am looking forward to the future with him.
Just like the poem "Youth Is All About You" I wrote before, classmate Cao occupied my entire high school for three years. Those three experiences before I went to high school made me think that I would never fall in love with others easily again, and I planned to listen to my mother's words. Who knew that he would become my deskmate so unexpectedly, and it was deeply ingrained in my heart without a sound (ha, sin, sin, sin). Although I don't know yet whether he and I can go on together, we both want it. So, the future is good, my classmate Cao.
2022.3.13 First draft
——I like you, day or night, day or night, I just simply want to be with you.
Purpose: campus youth