"How can Shanlan know the meaning of the clear sky? One person misses and the other leaves."
My story with her, I sealed it in this way
I am a person trapped in memories, everything is just a cocoon of my own
[Demining: First person, teacher and student Xiang Wu CP, adapted from real experience, please feel free to read]
This book records my story with her. I like her, and perhaps my feelings for her have already surpassed the awe a student has for his teacher. I want to be a good friend with her, maybe more as my ideal mother.
Her name is Cheng Lan, and she is a very kind person to me. This is also the first time I have experienced the feeling of being loved. I like this feeling, and I hope I will always be loved like this.
But it's a pity that there is no such thing as a feast that never ends, and we will eventually be separated. She who had kept in touch with me suddenly lost contact with me. I couldn't figure out why. I needed her and her response, just like a child relies on its mother.
After so many years, I still can't let go of her. I know that my actions will cause trouble to her, so I found another person - Duan Lin, who became my psychiatrist. With her help, I will gradually change my mind and start a new life.
[No special psychological problems, just over-dependence caused by childhood trauma. My psychology may be a bit extreme, and ordinary people may not understand me. I don't know how to express my love, and no one has taught me how to love someone. This is a test for me]
Purpose: No intention, just want to commemorate the lost time
