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Jiang Xiqiu is well-known in the circle. He is handsome, popular, and has a good family background. This is how others see him. He didn't know the taste of true love. He should only love himself, but Lin Zhi fell in his eyes and had an underground love affair behind everyone's back. He said that he had found the right person and planned everything to pave the way for the future with Lin Zhi. Sheng Siqi is a well-known model of a lady in the circle, with a good temper and a sense of propriety. Her liking for Jiang Xiqiu has become a label that she cannot even tear off. She has also been following Jiang Xiqiu's footsteps, secretly competing with each other. Jiang Xiqiu and Sheng Siqi had an arranged relationship. He had no feelings for her, but she knew it but didn't care. Sheng Siqi secretly watched the whole round of Jiang Xiqiu and Lin Zhi's vigorous underground love affair, and was about to give up. It turned out that Jiang Xiqiu still liked someone like this, and now she seemed... She should stop her losses in time. On the day of the complete breakup, Sheng Siqi was sour for a long time and could not be truly decent. "Jiang Xiqiu, I thought we would always be together. I thought... We would definitely make it to the end. I thought that I would give you some time and freedom regardless of whether you talk to others. After you think about it clearly and feel it, you will always choose me, as long as you are with me in the end, but you failed. I thought that if I behave better, Grandpa Jiang will like me more, and you will be able to accept me, but I was wrong." On the day they broke up, Sheng Siqi got drunk for the first time, vomited for a long time, said a lot of disgusting things about Jiang Xiqiu, and complained about him for a long time. Jiang Xiqiu sat quietly opposite her, staring at her without speaking. I like smart people, and I also like to do crazy things. I like to get my ears pierced, and I like tattoos. I also want to live a life of wantonness. I like to steal your cigarettes to smoke, and I also like to drink when bad things happen. Unfortunately, I always make myself embarrassed, so I can never let anyone know, because this is too different from my image. I can't let my life be a little different from my ideal. I want to be worthy of you. But love doesn't seem to be like this. When I found out about you and Lin Zhi, I was jealous and sad, and I did a lot of bad things. How could I be so bad and so... Annoying. ——Sheng Si period Jiang Xiqiu had fallen in love with Lin Zhi, and he thought it would be forever, but it wasn't. It was different from what he imagined, so he finally broke up with her. Sheng Siqi secretly looked at their backs and slowly thought about whether she should move forward boldly, passionately, and wantonly. She should not live for vain love, and she should not be bad and jealous. The boy who secretly ran away looked at the girl who was striding forward and showed her true appearance. He was shamefully moved, but he did not act until the girl looked at him. He found that the feelings he had suppressed for a long time had revived, and he was simply out of control. On the day he broke up with Sheng Siqi, Jiang Xiqiu stayed in his room and thought about it all night. He was decadent for a few days. He thought it was regret for the relationship of more than ten years. He couldn't understand it, so he just let this inexplicable feeling pass. But it turns out that the arrival of love is not always grand. Intention: love yourself