——
Gu Xianyu, who was bruised and swollen, held half a box of crumpled cigarettes that he had pulled from his stepfather, and squatted at the door of a billiards parlor in the town all night before finally seeing a car with an unrecognizable brand. He stared at the hand stretching out the car window to shake out the cigarette ashes for a long time, and then asked: "Master, do you want to buy cigarettes?"
Half of the man's face was hidden in the darkness, and the light only illuminated the lower half of his face.
During the long period of waiting for his answer, Gu Xianyu had actually given up. He even thought about which city to go to in the south, and then he heard the man ask: "How to sell it?"
Gu Xianyu stared at the watch on his wrist and counted the number nervously.
"This appearance, this price?"
"Okay, it's negotiable." He replied awkwardly.
That night, Gu Xianyu lost the money to go to college, went crazy at home, and was beaten half to death.
And he worked hard to earn back the money.
But this summer, he didn't wait for the notice that he could definitely wait for.
It took him half a lifetime to understand that that night he was like a fish that swam into the fish tank and could no longer swim in the rivers and lakes.
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Wen Zhifei asked him: "If you don't have a book to read, what will you do?"
"If you go to the south to work, you have to support your family."
Later, he really ran out of books to read, and Wen Zhifei gave him two choices.
"The relationship is over, you go to the south."
"If the relationship continues, come with me to Yanjing."
Gu Xianyu has always been grateful to him.
But people are not and cannot live only one age.
Strong desire for control, ruthlessness and paranoia, Tianlong Gong & wildness, gentleness, tenacity and ordinary acceptance
2025-11
Intention: perseverance and perseverance
