Dreaming About Ephemera

I really like this book, or in other words, I really like the tenacious Lin Jinci and Fu Yipei who firmly likes Lin Jinci. People are products of family and environment. It is precisely because of Xiaoci's twisted family that her background is lonely and closed. Her mother is prejudiced against her, her father is indifferent, her aunt is obsessed with money, and her cousin has evil intentions. Looking at it this way, there is no one who truly cares for her among the people who are always by her side. Xiaoci was just a child when her brother had a car accident, her mind was not yet mature, and she was faced with the loss of a life. She needed care. However, Xia Rong placed all the responsibility on her, regardless of the truth of the matter, because she was biased against Xiao Ci from the beginning to the end. So from the death in a car accident, to the early love affair in high school, to studying abroad, they only remembered the negative news about Xiaoci and what they thought were the negative impacts, but ignored the reality. Because, they no longer have love for Lin Jinci, only dissatisfaction and desire to control her. And what about Xiaoci? There is no one around to rely on, not even a place to stay. At home, you have to endure the malice of your parents, and at your aunt's house, you have to be wary of your cousin's intrusion. Intimacy brought her nothing but endless pain and self-doubt. To protect herself, she puts up walls and becomes emotionally indifferent. Try to do everything yourself, refuse to be soft to others, or even dare to admit your love and need for love, because it will symbolize your weakness and may also become a weapon for others to attack you. So she built a mechanism to protect herself: "She understood a long time ago that as long as she is softer and more plastic, exposes the festering wounds, imitates others crying in pain, and sheds some tears at the right time, she may get something called "love". It's too much trouble. If the love that everyone pursues is such a weak thing. Then she doesn't want it. " She has always done a good job of giving up those relationships that made her tired, except when she faced Fu Yipei. Fu Yipei is really good, but family disputes make it impossible for her to face his family calmly. So she chose to escape, swallowing and hiding "the part of life that cannot be explained in two hours." Because it was the humidity that lingered in her life. I watched her go through the pain of her family and the hesitation of youth alone, and I suddenly wanted to hug her. Tell her that you are fine. It is not your fault that your brother had a car accident. It is not your fault that you were mistaken for puppy love. It is not your fault that you want to eat meat. It is also not your fault that you plan to study abroad. It is they who have been emotionally kidnapping you. On the other hand, I admire her very much, maybe she doesn't need my hug. She has her own soul that has endured such pain in life, has her own goals and abilities, and is a thick and soft person. There is a sentence in the article that I like very much, it is called, "The first heartbeat of youth is to discover an island that is difficult to visit." If Xiaoci is the island that is difficult to visit and the unbearable iceberg on the water, then Fu Yipei is the mortal who was shocked by the wonder and developed love and desire to get close. From the silent attention in high school to the approach in the name of eating in the cafeteria in college, Fu Yipei always appears suddenly like the rain in spring and summer, and is unnoticed. By the time you sense him, he is already very close to you. This man seems to have skipped the stage where boys in adolescence are disgusted by others. He is so delicate in his dealings with others, as if he can withstand all indifference and dissatisfaction. But when Lin Jinci faced such a flawless, spotless and perfect person, her thoughts were filled with disgust and fear. "She suddenly thought—— Is there a little fish in this world who was thrown ashore as soon as he was born, survived strangely, and has been afraid of the sea ever since? The first person to give Lin Jinci such a strong sense of fear was Fu Yipei. " In fact, in a sense, being hated by Xiao Ci doesn't mean that he is actually an extremely special person in Xiao Ci's heart. When two people with wonderful personalities met, a different spark sparked. There are many special and strange things between them, such as meeting in the men's bathhouse in high school, the coincidence of watching a movie together in college, and the misunderstanding of "rescuing" a cousin after returning to China. , Destiny is really a wonderful thing. It does not want smooth sailing, but twists and turns. But perhaps emotionally, this is the shortest way for them to take. Under the influence and influence of her grandmother and aunt, and staying away from the people and things that consumed her energy, Xiaoci finally had the energy to fall in love. She is not really a stone-hearted person, but she can also feel Fu Yipei's care for her. So, she decided to give her heart to find love and receive love. I feel like crying when I write this. Xiaoci is such a good person, but he is so tortured that he feels hollow. Fortunately, Fu Yipei is there. He was her respite and reward in her busy life, and he was the rare person she could rely on with peace of mind. Hey, let's not talk anymore, please continue to be happy as a couple!

After reading the book for the second time, I had a completely different feeling than following the serialization. I was a little tired when I read this article during the serialization, because the writing method of this book is different from the author's other books, and it is easy to forget the previous plot, and then fail to connect to the subsequent plots. Therefore, when I read the series, it was the most boring time I have read so many books by the author. After the second time, I realized that this book may be the most worthy of a second reading among all the author's books. The experience is completely different from reading during the serialization.

Read it again, happy