It records the story of my acquaintance with all kinds of men in Beijing since I was in college. There is only one protagonist who occupies the C position of the entire story in his most profound way.
Male protagonist 1 (received): I am Shi Zhe. Male protagonist 2 (attack): Liu Qihao.
It is a story about regrets. The core story line is that two people hurt each other with the help of various male partners. There is no weak side, both are quite cruel, but the male partner is a male partner after all. In the end, the most cruel thing is to stab each other directly. There are series elements such as online games, real-life circles, workplace, sensuality and so on.
Liu Qihao: I have thought about being with you, I have thought about it very seriously.
Me: I also thought about giving birth to a child for you, just to make it useful.
Liu Qihao: If we don't start at the right time, it will most likely end at the wrong time. It would be better not to start at all.
Me: I have never thought so much. If I erase everything before, hey, forget it, I can't erase it.
Liu Qihao: If we could do it all over again, would everything be different?
Me: How the hell do I know if it will be different? If I had to do it all over again, I would rather not know you.
Demining:
1. There is no overhead and no Mary Sue, so it is not suitable for CP.
2. Definitely BE, there is occasionally sugar but not much. There is no mutual redemption, only mutual destruction.
3. The knife is not meant to stab you.
4. The plot and story are basically true, and the male perspective plot will not take into account the overall perception. The plot progresses very quickly without going into too many details.
5. It is a first-person memoir. The plot occasionally jumps, but it does not affect reading.
Intent: To comprehensively show the chaos and helplessness of gay love