The Affectionate Male Lead's Journey to Pursue Her Husband

I am a minor supporting character in a romance novel. I like a person very much. His name is Xie Zhixing. He is the affectionate second male protagonist in this novel. He likes the heroine. He would risk his life for her, but he refuses to say "I love you." Diary: 2016.9.2 When I entered high school and started military training, I met a very handsome man. It was obviously my first time meeting him. Why was I so moved? Ahhhhhh! ! ! 2016.10.9 After a month of unremitting efforts, I finally found out what his name was, hahahahahahaha. It turns out that he is the only son of the Xie family - Xie Wen. ... 2017.7.1 He plays so handsomely! I'm so fascinated! ... 2018.6.12 After the quiz in the second year of high school, we were assigned to the same desk again. He and I were the same deskmate. But why is he so cold! ... 2018.12.28 A transfer student appeared. She was so beautiful that even Awen took the initiative to talk to her... 2018.3.15 Awen confessed to her, but she didn't agree. Awen was so sad. I watched Awen cry, and I felt so distressed. But he was rejected, and I was so happy. ... 2019.5.1 The girl got together with a handsome guy. Awen cried again and finally accepted going abroad. I went with him. 2019.5.21 Awen was still as cold as before. 2019.8.6 Awen and I are together! Although he was coerced by his family. ... 2021.9.25 I drew a picture for him, and I happily showed it to him. He asked me not to draw him again, or else he would tear up all my paintings. But I think my painting is pretty good... 2021.10.13 Awen was drunk tonight, and he kept holding me and crying. I finally helped him to the bed, but he called the heroine's name on my bed... It turns out that she is getting married today. ... 2023.6.8 Today is my birthday, but it is the most unfortunate time in my life. It is the first time I know how hard it is to celebrate a birthday. Today the heroine called Awen and asked Awen to take her away. She said she could no longer love the hero. Awen ignored my pleading, he slapped me, then picked up the key and went out. This is the first time he hit me... 2022.7.3 Awen couldn't get through on the phone, didn't reply to messages, and the company didn't care. I took care of everything. I used my shares in the company to make up for it. I'm so tired from work lately! 2023.8.7 I was held down by a group of people before I woke up. It turned out that the male protagonist was looking for the female protagonist. He searched around the house but couldn't find the female protagonist. He called Awen... Awen, I haven't heard his voice for a long time... Awen didn't know what he said, so he hung up the phone. He looked so angry, Awen, why don't you come back... He wants to take me to a rehabilitation center! ... 2023.10.7 The heroine is found by the hero. I finally got out from there. I had never felt that the bustling crowds and the noon sun were so pleasant... I was treated inhumanely for two months inside... But I still love Awen so much. 2023.10.16 Awen still only cares about the heroine. He didn't notice any injuries on my body and never even looked at me seriously. Why do I feel so distressed? 2023.12.29 I made a ring out of the only jade bracelet my mother left for me before she passed away, and gave it to Awen. I watched him put it on, and I was really happy. He is indeed the person I like, and everything he wears on his hand looks good. But that day when I went out, I saw the heroine wearing the same ring on her hand... There was only one ring, and it must be the one I gave Awen! 2023.12.30 Today I had a fight with him about the ring. It was the only relic left by my mother to me. What I regarded as a treasure was worthless to him! ... 2024.2.14 I planted a yard of white roses in my yard, which are my favorite flowers. 2024.4.21 Something happened to the heroine again, and he left again... I can't hold on anymore, I'm so tired, how can he fall in love with me? It's impossible in this life... ... 2024.4.25 I filled the bathtub with water, went to a nearby flower shop and bought a bouquet of white roses to put in the bathtub. I used the cold and sharp iron tool to prick the skin on my wrist, slowly lay down in the bathtub, and slowly closed my eyes... I opened my eyes and found that I was still alive, but this was not a bathroom, this seemed to be... My home? Purpose: Cherish the good life