Me and My Sinking Winter

Pseudo-little mom literatureRepublic of China, late 1990s, age difference Perish in sobriety, revel in atonement. -18S attack-Li Nan-Naughty, sensitive, possessive, crying, paranoid, loving to pretend=Miss* —"I cherish her, Just like worshiping Buddha in front of the temple, kneeling three times and prostrating nine times." - When the wind blows, her tears fall, and even reaching out to catch them is considered presumptuous. -27S Shou-Ruoniang-gentle, tough, no lower limit, doting, shy = servant* (child bride) - "You are still young and ignorant. I can't follow you into confusion..." - "Should I bet? I bet that she is deeply affectionate. Not a child who doesn't know whether he will survive the whim of next winter." Shou is inferior to others due to external conditions (age, status, status), but Gong is the low-ranking person in this relationship. #'S eighteen years were eighteen years of life and death framed by cold rules. In the first nine years, although the days were old and rusty, there were still stars in the sky and earth shining through the flower branches, and the spring breeze warmed the world. There were still people who supported her spring and scenery. In the next nine years, the years turned into an endless snowy night. The snow fell silently, but it smeared all the darkness, freezing her whole body in the cold winter that never dawned. When people are alive, they must have some sustenance, otherwise they will not be able to survive. But she didn't dare to think back on the good times of the previous nine years, let alone think about that person. Because all the good things were buried by her own hands. It was a mistake she made nine years ago, a mistake that was so deep that she could not forgive herself for this life. She hugged the pain that could not be relieved, and just wanted it to be buried with her and buried with her. But the red rope on his wrist had already been deeply cut into his flesh and blood. The rope that cannot be untied, A fate that cannot be solved, An inextricable fate. If God is destined to reunite them—— She never asked for much. It was just to make up for the mistakes of the past, just to see her well from a distance, and he didn't even dare to ask for forgiveness. But why... Why can't I help but want to touch you just when I'm close? Why do you want her to give you more looks after just one glance? Why can't I help myself even though I'm clearly awake? Why are you so greedy even though you know you shouldn't? Why do we still knowingly commit the crime when we know it is an abyss? She was lowering her eyes, carefully arranging the other party's clothes and trousers, not wanting to let any wet and cold slush stain the corners of his clothes. But when she finished her sentence, her fingertips suddenly froze, and her heartbeat staggered and beat wildly. She could tell that the tone was just a joke. But she still looked at herself soberly and desperately again and again—— Falling into the boundless swamp, trapped in a self-imposed prison. Know your mistakes and don't correct them. One mistake, another mistake. So wrong that there is no turning back, so wrong that there is no way to recover. God doesn't care about my life or death, God cannot even hear my prayers; I drew the lottery by chance, It's inevitable that you snatched it from me. ——It's your pity... There is a voice in my heart, as light as a sigh, but as heavy as fate: ——I think I'm going to betray myself. "I said, I can't like you, you don't have to..." Regarding age, identity, gender, That person was not just hesitant... "I know." She responded softly, so calm that she almost accepted her fate, "I don't care." "Besides, it's never you who has the final say whether you like me or not..." She gently raised her hand and moved closer, then closer. "Don't talk," "Listen," The night is quiet, the wind and snow are silent. "The sound of your heartbeat is about to shatter the entire night." Some feelings fall into the dust after birth and cannot bloom, but they refuse to fall after death. The girl's passionate love is so straightforward and hot, This heart that has been cold for almost 30 years, ——It also turned into a corner quietly, This life should be silent, She insisted on pulling her to see the light of day... Gong has a knot in her heart and has a rather twisted personality. The first few chapters may describe her psychology too much, so you can skip or read briefly. All the good fights in the early stage were all due to the way a mother treats her children. She even thought the child was joking with her before she started to be attracted to her, and then she really started to get interested and hesitated... After the completion, extra chapters or illustrations may be updated during weekends. *Lei: There is a scene of being raped (non-offensive). It does not clearly state whether it is clean or unclean, just think of it yourself. The author is a science student and is not very good at history. The plot of the Republic of China may not be rigorous, but there will be no obvious errors. Mainly focusing on perspective, first person, the author is a bit literate, and the wording may have some rhetorical accumulation. Concept: We are all wild flowers all over the mountains and plains, love makes us take root