I have thought about how I will spend my life, who I will meet, who I will marry, where I will go, what things I will remember, and finally, where and how I will spend the last moment of my life, and who will be by my side.
I once thought about becoming a chivalrous woman who travels around the world to eliminate violence; I want to be a well-rounded businessman, and the money I earn is as rich as the enemy; I also want to be a female general who fights in all directions, guarding the borders, and safeguarding the people's livelihood... I don't want to just be a high-ranking lady, like a canary in a gorgeous cage, with no freedom except life and death in my life.
When I used to think like this, Zuo Xuanzhi always told me that a happy life is a luxury wish for the children of high families in the capital. The power and wealth we enjoy are all obtained by pawning our freedom at birth, which is the price we don't have to worry about material desires. I asked him, if you had the choice, would you still be born in Yingdu? He looked at the fallen autumn leaves outside the house, and after a while he said to me, we had no choice.
The last autumn leaves must have been blown off by the biting cold wind. When the vitality is gone, the dry branches are stained by the cold wind, and the enthusiasm they once had slowly dissipates. You can't tell what it lives for. Are you waiting for next spring? But as a branch, how do you know whether the next spring will come? If it falls forever in the Cambrian era, it will be accompanied by the cold wind and waiting for the rest of its life. Perhaps on the day when spring comes to the earth a long, long time later, this bunch of branches has long forgotten how to sprout, how eager, and how full of life. In the end, death will be her only relief and salvation.
Intent: In troubled times, hatred and ambition, friendship and choice bring three people with very different identities into close contact and then push them into opposites. They can't resist despite the odds, but the progress of the times will bring everyone to their rightful destination.