"CZH"

I had a dream last night, dreaming about you. You smiled and asked me why I kept staring at you. I asked you with red eyes... Why did you leave me? I think this is probably because the yearning is so deep in my bones that I don't even want to let go of the dream. After losing you, I realized that when I lose someone, I can lose three pounds by eating only one meal a day, cry until I have no tears, and suffer from insomnia for several days and nights. I also comfort myself. In countless nights, I will occasionally think of you inadvertently, of the roads we have walked together, the things we have done together, the scenery we have seen together, the meals we have eaten together, and the promises that have not been fulfilled. I began to be afraid, afraid that time passed too fast, afraid that you would forget me, afraid that time would dilute this memory. I know that we will all meet different people and start our own new lives. I also understand that people cannot always live in the past, but I will always think of you in an inadvertent moment. I felt breathless and distressed. Suddenly my nose became sore and tears kept falling down. I couldn't do either of them to keep you or let go of you. When I drank wine and told my friends seriously about you, the powerlessness and regret were really indescribable. I didn't blame you. I just felt that I was too bad and a little too sensitive. I have never been happy after you left. I smiled in the mirror, trying to make myself happy. Only when I looked at myself in the mirror did I know what it meant to force a smile. Did you know? From the moment I was with you, I never thought about getting separated. When I loved you seriously, I never left a way out for myself. I just greedily wanted to be with you all the time. You have already become my spiritual sustenance. Life is already very tiring, and now I don't even have spiritual sustenance. I really don't know how to live this life. I really want to have someone. Pause button, I want to slow down, but suddenly everything seems to be gone. I don't know why, but the obsession is getting deeper and deeper, and time has not let me go... I have always loved you in my own way, although I don't know if my way is right, but I have no malice, and I don't want you to be unhappy because of my love. I love you and will always love you... Concept: Lost Youth