I like to read redemption stories very much, in many novels I have read
The protagonist was bullied since childhood and lived a rough and rough life in the first half of his life.
They are sick, paranoid, indifferent, gloomy, possessive, and full of thorns
Some of them are yanderes, some have borderline personality disorder, and some have antisocial personalities that attack indiscriminately.
Their world is full of loneliness and pain, and despair is the main color of their lives. Their tragic experiences have made them vindictive, insecure, aggressive, irritable, and...
However, their dark and oppressive world will eventually usher in a beam of warm light. This beam of light is exclusive to them. This beam of light exists only for them. This beam of light will dispel the haze in their hearts and take them back to a normal life.
Whenever this happens, they will say: "Meeting you is the luckiest thing in my life. If the suffering I suffered in the first half of my life was in exchange for meeting you, I would be happy to do so."
I don't know if I will meet my own light, but I can only believe that I will meet the light. I can't live any longer. I have to find something to strengthen my memory of this world.
So, since you are my light and the salvation I exchanged for my misfortune and pain
Then, you have to pay for my pain, and you are responsible for all the suffering I have suffered. This is your obligation.
Starting today, forget about the previous ten years, I will record all my negative emotions. This is all what you owe me. I will get back this debt from you in the future.
Of course, this is something that can only be accomplished if you exist. If you don't exist, then half of my life is really not worth it. My existence is a joke, sad and pitiful.
I don't know in what capacity you will come into my life, nor can I foresee anything about you.
Let me give you a codename, just Paulong.
Purpose: Strive to strengthen the belief in living and create bonds with the world