I have a lover, he is pure, gentle, and elegant, but there is one thing wrong with him. He is so busy that I have not been able to see him for several years.
We have been married for thirteen years, but these thirteen years seem to be no different from when I was single. I buy groceries alone, eat alone, fall asleep and wake up alone. The morning sun shines on me, but I am the only one who sees the sun.
Sometimes I think that he should be looking at the same sky as me.
Then I was very frustrated. No, he and I are not together, and we do not live under the same sky. We cannot see the same sun.
Yes, my lover and I are not in the same time and space.
I don't know which time and space he is in, but he comes to see me every few years, sometimes for one year, sometimes for two years, sometimes for three years.
But it's been five years now and I haven't seen him yet. Maybe he's really busy or is restricted by time and space.
In the thirteen years of marriage, I only saw him five times, and one of them was on our wedding day.
Every time he comes here, he will only stay with me for a month or two, but it doesn't matter, it's enough.
He always comes over when I miss him very much and stays with me for a few months to make me less miserable.
And now, I miss him very, very much, more than ever before, and I think it's probably time for him to come.
Intention: Born toward the sun