Quote: We can choose to escape the fear of death and let it be at its mercy; we can also choose to face this fear and re-examine life. We can choose freedom, and thus choose loneliness; we can also choose embrace, and thus choose certain restrictions. We can choose to put on thick armor to protect ourselves, even if it makes people breathless; we can also choose to go through pain and open the door of the heart that has been sealed for a long time. When we choose the latter, we will find that what we long for is the real self meeting the real other person and holding each other's hands. ——"Schopenhauer's Treatment"
Intention: On a sunny day, because I wanted to get rid of the persistent depression and loss, and longed to experience the joy that I had almost forgotten for several years, I went to a hospital that treats mental illness. The result was not very optimistic for me, nor was it very bad. After countless struggles, I chose what Charlie Gordon (the hero in "Flowers for Algernon") did before his intelligence faded - to explore myself. Dostoevsky said: "Man is a mystery. It should be solved. If you spend your whole life solving it, don't say you have lost time; I am studying this mystery because I want to be a human being." This is his realist revelation of the mysteries of man in the highest sense, and it is also my choice; second-hand smoke and crazy women are my mysteries, but they are not just my mysteries, but a microcosm that evolves everyone's confusion and struggle in an invisible place. , Unraveling them is the meaning of my life, and it is also the progress of a certain period of human civilization. Of course, this is what I say without shame. All words come not only from truth, but also from fiction. In the interweaving of truth and falsehood, people can often discover themselves best. I hope this book will be helpful to you.