What she strives for is what others have always had.
What she fought so hard to protect was what caused her the most pain.
She thought that what was as solid as a rock was the most fragile.
What she ran away from in every possible way was what others wanted to care about her most.
Xun Jingshu: Because I love you deeply, I stay away from you.
Ji Chenglin: I love you deeply because I met you.
Chen Jingyu: I hurt you because I love you deeply.
Gu Shiwei: I fell in love with you because I miss you.
Note
(1) The heroine has a serious mental illness.
(2) First person narrative.
(3) The male protagonist is not an infatuated and aloof persona. In the early stage, he was a scumbag and a prodigal.
(4) Brainless writing and no logic.
(5) Memories kill.
Intention: There is always someone who loves you deeply in this world