On the day Shen Jiashu went to Sang Qi's house to look for a hard drive, he accidentally found a diary under the desk. He picked it up instinctively. The bookmark in the book fell to the ground. It looked old and the paper had turned yellow, but the girl herself was elegant.
Shen Jiashu, I still can't forget you this year.
----Ruan Mian
Shen Jiashu frowned. For a long time, he lowered his eyes and looked at the yellowed papers one by one. There were five years in between when he didn't write anything.
He sank because of the five years he and Zheng Jiahe were together.
Shen Jiashu spent more than 40 minutes watching Ruan Mian's 9-year secret love.
My mood was complicated, and my heart seemed to be blocked by something.
Ruan Mian came home and saw this scene.
The afterglow of the setting sun shines into the room through the window, casting a pale yellow shadow on Shen Jiashu's face. There is a faint flow of luster on his skin. His white T-shirt flutters slightly in the wind, setting off his dark brown hair. His nose is high and straight. His bony hands are flipping through the diary he wrote when he was young. He looks very depressed.
She was slightly startled and a little at a loss. Perhaps it had been too long. She had imagined this scene countless times, but now things had changed and the boy she loved had remained the same, but he no longer belonged to her.
She walked over, tried hard to adjust herself, and gave herself psychological counseling over and over again, trying to pretend it didn't matter, but when she saw Shen Jiashu's eyes, tears flowed down unknowingly. All the grievances and bitterness she had accumulated over the past 9 years exploded at this moment, and the memory of her death appeared in her mind, seeming to tell her.
9 Years later, you still like him very much.
He spoke in a low voice: Ruan Mian, when I was 17, I was also attracted to you, but I want to say to you, thank you for liking me for so many years.
Talking about me, he put down the diary and walked away in a hurry, as if he was avoiding her like before. She wanted to say, Shen Jiashu, liking you is my responsibility.
Ruan Mian was taken aback by the words "I was also attracted to you". She squatted on the ground and looked at the diary of her childhood, as if she had fallen in love with him again. Every sentence was proof of her love for him.
In 2013, I seemed to know what love at first sight meant...
In 2015, his girl was really good-looking...
In 2020, I don't want to like him anymore…
It turns out that time is not wrong. The fault is that we are not brave enough and are unwilling to express our love. If I am brave enough, maybe I will be the one who spends all the years with you now, eating three meals a day and four seasons, and there will be no regrets in my youth.
We once became the light in each other's lives, but because of cowardice, we extinguished it with our own hands.
When I was young, I was glad that I met you when you had no love or care.
When I grow up, I hope I am the one who meets you later.
Sunshine Depressed Girl × Lonely Boy
Two-way redemption
Ruan Mian used all his happiness to help Shen Jiashu come out of the darkness. He said thank you lightly. Zheng Jiahe made him experience the beauty of everything in the world and allowed him to be treated tenderly by the world, but he spent the rest of his life repaying it.
I pulled you out of the abyss, but you kept me in darkness for the rest of my life.
Intention: Dedicated to every secret admirer.