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2022.7.22 11:20 Note: 2022.7.22 10:44 Qiu Ruihan broke up with me... I sent her a message two days ago, but she didn't reply. I just felt like it was nothing, so I didn't need to worry about it. Then I sent her a second message, but she didn't reply either. , I felt a little uncomfortable. I looked at her updates to see who had a crush on her. When I encountered this situation before, she always sent me private messages directly, saying that she was keeping her integrity. Every time I wanted to cry, I was so happy from the bottom of my heart, but this time she sent it to the space, and I felt even worse. I posted an update, and she liked it instantly. I felt something... Then I went to the group to vent, saying that I felt cheated, and I took the screenshot. The picture was posted to the space, and she replied. I was very happy at the time, thinking that I was overthinking myself, and then asked to play games together. On the first day, she said she wanted to go to bed early, and I controlled myself not to think too much. I told her to remember to call me when she played, and she agreed. The next day, she invited me, and after just one game, she lost. I really cheated her in that game... I thought that it must be me that caused her to go offline. On the third day, I went online, and I made an appointment with her, and she said she would get off after playing. (I forgot what day it was, and I made an appointment with her. She asked me to play first, so I played. She asked me what I liked about her, and I said interesting soul, but she didn't reply. I asked her, and she said she didn't know.) Today, I invited her to play Genshin Impact. She said her home had a power outage, no internet, and Genshin Impact had not been updated. There were so many coincidences that I really felt like we were about to break up. I posted the post for two days and she liked my post. My friends comforted me and I tried my best not to think too much. Then she sent "Are you sleeping?" I didn't dare to reply. I was afraid. When she sent this message, I was already crying. I quickly clicked and left. After a while, she sent another message "Break up, sister." I didn't dare to reply. I was afraid. I cried even louder. I clicked into the space and she terminated the relationship for me. My mind went blank at that time. What's wrong? I... I firmly believe that we can get to the end. I bought her something the day before yesterday. I asked She didn't reply to her address, so I deleted the two messages, thinking, forget it, I can't see it, just treat it as a little surprise for her. She replied and asked me what I wanted to do. I didn't want to say anything anymore. She said she wanted me to return it. She didn't need anything. I said it was fine anyway. It's not expensive, so she won't reply. And today she posted "What's the point of love"... I... Really don't know what to do, I can't vent my emotions, I'm introverted, I don't get good grades, I'm stupid, I'm timid, I can't even keep one person, I'm really tired , I really want to die, my heart really hurts, I want to pull my heart out, it really hurts. The first person I liked was Qiu Ruihan, the first time I was depressed was Qiu Ruihan, and it was also the first time I received a gift from someone other than Chu's family. Qiu Ruihan, many of my first times were because of Qiu Ruihan. For me, an introvert with few friends, she is really my life, she is my light, I thought I would be with her until the end, and she also said that she would Follow me to the end, why, I haven't done anything harmful, why do you do this to me, if you can't go to the end, why do you agree to my confession? I have a crush on her for three months, and these three months I have been thinking whether she will dislike me. On December 26, 2021, I confessed to her at about 11 o'clock, and she agreed. I thought we would go to the end... 43 Minutes ago, she terminated the Kuaishou relationship with me. Coupled with the pressure from my parents, the pressure of upcoming results and the breakup, it was the first time I was under such great pressure. I really couldn't stand it. I really wanted to die... Intention: None