I want to be abandoned by God, I want to fall into hell forever,
God is not willing.
I struggled hard, but what I encountered was rebirth.
I don't want to! I don't want to!
God said, I want you to be born again:
Know what love is, know what hate is, and feel what pain is.
In my previous life, I was bloodbathed for countless days and nights;
In this life, we are destined to embark on a path of no return.
May you be my God.