In his first life, he was tortured and experienced what it means to be pushed into darkness. The person who pushed you into darkness also took you to heaven. He ended his lingering life in the struggle.
In the second life, he was reborn and returned, but he was still a prisoner in the reincarnation, going round and round, making the same mistakes again, but everything seemed different.
(Demining: be, bloody, poor writing, confusing plot, ah ah ah, they are all faults anyway)
Intention: love, hate, love and hatred