Forbearance and calmness // Stubborn and affectionate attack
The story of a little wolfdog who got the leash into his lover's hands
"Give me a little more time."
Bai Tu spoke softly while buttoning his buttons, his expression returning to normal.
"Three years?" Yun Shang turned to look at him and asked with a frown.
"..."
Yun Shang's expression darkened, and he felt angry and uncomfortable: "Why? Why do you have to set a certain time before you accept me?"
"You are still young and don't understand many things."
"Then what if you push me away again?"
"I won't."
"I don't believe you."
"Forget it if you don't do it, just pack your bags and go to Beijing to go to university."
Bai Tu said clearly, buckled the belt, walked around him and walked upstairs.
"... What should I do to make you believe me?"
"You don't need to do anything, you just need to grow up."
Yun Shang turned around and looked at the man who walked up the stairs calmly: "Is it really necessary for me to see the dazzling world, experience all kinds of life, and even get married and have children with a woman, and then I feel that I can't let you go and come back to you, so that you will feel that I am sincere to you? If so, then why didn't you just stay with Su Qiyang when he came back to look for you?"
Bai Tu's footsteps slowly stopped, holding his hand on the railing, and stood there in a daze.
Yun Shang's voice was slightly trembling: "You are afraid, aren't I afraid? I am also afraid that you will treat me the same way you treated him. It took you ten years to forget him, but as for me, how many years can you remember me?"
He was afraid that if he didn't hold on to him tightly now, he might suddenly disappear from his own world one day.
Very~very~slow~hot~
Chapter 3: Attack and Shou didn't officially meet until they met, and there was all small foreshadowing in the beginning.
The plots before and after are quite different, and there are many foreshadowings. If you read this article, you need to be patient (mention important things three times X3).
Semi-fictional, main narrative, no exciting, suspenseful, ups and downs of the plot, it is a microcosm of ordinary and real life. It writes about the different lives and endings of several similar people, about escape and courage, life and responsibility. About heterosexuality and physical marriage, public opinion and quarrels. About parents and love.
They degraded, struggled, fought hard, laughed and cried to live, no different from ordinary people, but they just couldn't stand in the sun like ordinary people.
The three views of the plot do not represent the author's own. If there is any misunderstanding, please turn right when you go out. Thank you~
Intention: Do you see how they are different from us?
Reader comments
This story has been in preparation since 2018. It originated from a true story told to me by a netizen. At that time, I promised him that he would write it well, but it took so long that I felt a little guilty. It may be that his life is too depressing and he has no friends around him who can confide this secret, so he can only talk to netizens.
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After he told me his story word for word, we never contacted him again, but I still remember how hard I cried when we communicated until three or four in the middle of the night that night. I cried while handwriting the record, really like a tearful Xiu Gou. And he must have been crying a lot, and he was typing intermittently for me. He said that his heart was not good and he needed to take a rest sometimes (but maybe he was recalling the crying and laughing experiences that made him unhappy). This was also the main motivation that supported me to finish writing this story.
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Because I feel so sorry for his ending, I want to give him a perfect ending. I also hope that he can really meet someone like Yun Shang who can bravely love him under the sun. I also wish him good health and happiness now~
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I kept stumbling on the outline later on, and I stopped for a while when I was halfway through writing the story because I was too busy with work. When I continued writing later, the original handwritten outline was lost due to moving, which made me anxious. Fortunately, part of it was recorded electronically, and I had a clear memory of the importance I attached to the story, so I was able to re-record some of the plot.
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But what I didn't expect was that at the beginning of 21, the relationship between Bai Tuyunshang and Bai Tuyunshang encountered another bottleneck. Because I'm not good at writing emotional dramas (face covering), the three previous works were all aborted because the plots just developed to the point where the emotional drama was high-C.
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I thought this movie really couldn't be aborted, so I decided to write it later. As I was writing it, it was like I had a golden finger, and I suddenly became enlightened about emotional dramas. I think it may be because I was drawn into the story of Bai Tuyun Shang, so the subsequent emotional scenes fell into place naturally. Moreover, it was so easy to write the emotional scenes between them in the later period, so much so that I had the urge to fill in all those immature pitfalls of practicing writing~
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Ah, now I feel like I have completed a mission, I am relaxed, and I really like this story that I have completed by myself. Although I had to redo it twice for overall adjustments, it was very tiring, but it was worth it. I am personally very satisfied with the final version. As for the outcome, of course I still hope that someone will like the story and the characters in it, but I'll try my best and leave everything to fate.
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There are some thoughts about the characters later, but I won't go into them here. I'll release them when it's finished~
I hope Baozi who is interested in this story will enjoy reading it~
In the early stage, Bai Tu redeems Yun Shang, in the middle stage, the relationship develops, in the later stage, the climax of online public opinion occurs, and at the end, Yun Shang redeems Bai Tu. The first half and the second half of the story are completely different types. Although it is a bit divisive, I still hope someone can read it to the end. Later, it writes about the current situation of many minority groups, and there is also a fierce discussion on the Internet. The writing style is a bit poor, and it seems that this kind of bland and ordinary narrative method is not liked by many people now, and it makes me cry~~~
////////////In order to arouse the curiosity and attention of passing readers, let me summarize the general meaning of the second half.
Everyone is having a great time in the world of BL, but really few people care about how ordinary people live and how they live. Not many people care about what they need, what they fear, and what they really hope for. What most people want from them is just a sense of fun, imaginary fairness, and the desire to satisfy their own needs.
This is the first time I have come across such a realistic article. Rather than saying this is a story about love and redemption, it is better to say that it is a microcosm of the struggles of marginalized groups in life, and it is the cruel and real world that stands before us.
Personally, I prefer articles with bland narratives. Overly gorgeous settings and obscure vocabulary will add too much unreality to a story. Life is a slow flow, and people and things should move forward slowly. That day, I was sitting at home having a literary drought. I clicked on the list category and fell in love with such a fresh and refined article at a glance. The author has been asking us whether this article is boring or too ordinary. I think otherwise. It is precisely in such an ordinary life that there are such extraordinary people and extraordinary things.
Although the protagonist in the book is Bai Tu Yunshang, it writes about the lives of several types of people. Some of them suffered setbacks one after another like Bai Tu and suffered too many hardships; some were abandoned by their families like Xu Jiu and held on to a hope; some were entangled in the thorns of reality like Zhang Beiling and could not move; some chose to escape like Su Qiyang, unwilling to face the end and were forced to surrender; some chose to abandon their moral bottom line and use methods that went against their conscience; and some, although small, still worked hard to live. In such a group portrait-type article, everyone is the protagonist. "Look how different they are from us." The difference is that they have to suffer the strange prejudiced eyes of society, the difference is that even love has to be revealed quietly in the dark night, the difference is that they are desperate in the face of fate... They are far braver than us.
When reading the book, I had the same idea as the author. I felt that Yun Shang was more like an illusory existence. As the author said, "I'm not sure whether he is gay or not. I just subconsciously think that he likes a man. For the same-sex group, the possibility of existence is very slim." Yun Shang is among them, more like a redeeming existence. In the book, he saves Baitu who fell on the edge of the cliff of life several times; in reality, he can be the entity of spiritual strength that supports the cruel life, and is a belief for most unfortunate people to live. In reality, no regrets will eventually be made up for, and wounds will always heal, but the author's gentle writing and a cloud tell us that hope will last forever.
Most of the novels are fictional. At first glance, they are industrial saccharine with pink bubbles, becoming pleasure waste in the brain. But this novel is based on reality. The author uses the sharpest and cruelest words to expose the real problems in society - cheating, discrimination against TXL groups, campus QL, Internet violence, attraction, family violence... After reading this book, I felt a sense of sadness. These seemingly darkest and cruelest things are still happening quietly, which all arouse our vigilance and deep thought.
What troubled me the most in this book was not only Bai Tu's dark past, but also the ending of Xu Jiu and Zhang Beiling. If some people are punished for their evil deeds, then the tragedy of these two people can only be caused by fate. In my opinion, Kujiu is like the second Bai Tu. Although he has waded through the mud, he is still cute and innocent. The author did not explain his final ending, but I secretly hope that he can live a good life and keep his rare innocence. Zhang Beiling has shouldered too many responsibilities. His inner heroism and extraordinary status are destined to make this journey more difficult for him than others. Only in front of a long time can he pursue his true heart. He is like a traveler running around in the wind and snow. During the long night, he takes a rest at the light and then gets up and rushes to the next stop. No nostalgia, no return.
I also want to ask the netizen mentioned by the author how he is doing now. No matter how cruel life is, you have to go on, right? You should have walked out a long time ago, or maybe you haven't let go yet? I may not be able to completely empathize with you, but after reading your story, I hope you can live your life with all your strength, and you will definitely meet your Yun Shang.
Ling Ling has already written a thousand words, so it's a simple book. What I want to say is that the overall reading of this book is very smooth and the rhythm is very harmonious. However, people who like this kind of slow pace may like it very much, but people who like fast pace will not be able to read it, which is a pity. It is recommended that the author try more various styles (?) And will continue to pay attention~
Ha
This is not Cloud Puppy! ! Why do puppies bite people? ! !
Wow, this is the first time I see someone from Xinjin who directly submits the final article. I thought he deleted his account and started over again.
Woo woo woo, it's right, it's right, the memories arranged in this way are really clever, not abrupt at all, giving people a feeling of sudden enlightenment. Why are the eye colors different? Why do I keep dreaming about becoming a child? Everything is right.
The bullying was very cruel at first, but I didn't let it go, Crying Bird~
This chapter is so well written. What he threw was not the stones, but the seeds of flowers. He expected to set off a stormy sea, but instead waited for the flowers to grow wantonly and enthusiastically from the bottom of his heart.
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! ! The white father and the white mother are so cute!
Kao, it's a knife, it'll kill me
If I drink too much, I will really burst into tears... Wuwuwuwu, I really like Xu Jiu and Beiling.
I clicked a song "Don't Love Me" by Joker Xue, and it was like a knife...
After reading the previous part, I feel that the author's writing style is pretty good. If he hadn't posted all the subsequent posts, I feel that more people would follow him.
Is there such a big age difference? !
It's so well written, I prefer this kind of modern everyday style
Oh, and there is also the Coriander Law, which echoes the first chapter, so the person that Teacher Bai told his students before is the one named Song?
Who is right, who is at fault, and who is to blame. How to calculate all the disasters caused by good intentions.
Wait, I am not standing in the wrong place... I have always felt that for a long time it was Shou, and Zhang Beiling was Gong (), is that so?
Did Meng Qing assist or not?
What! I keep getting Su Qiyang and Song Wujie confused! ! ! ! I thought it was a person! ! !
Do the three Cui brothers all like the heroine? ? ? [Split]
I would like to ask if Bai Tu lived in Dabieye, the house he lives in now. I thought it was an apartment-style one (he hasn't bought a house yet), but I remember seeing him going upstairs to the bedroom... (Help, he is really rich, why rent a villa?)
? ? ? ! ! ! Is Su Qiyang the only one who makes tea? ? ? Why is it so tea?
Su Qiyang or tea (gritting his teeth)
A glass of wine cp (referring to Beijiu) cannot be be! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Not allowed! ! ! ! !
Woohoo, this is too cruel (-???-???-???-???-???___-???-???-???-???-???)
When will the update be released? The story is great. I'm so excited to wait for it now (?? ?? )
The content is really good, and the writing is also very good, but I still want to say that the beginning is too cumbersome and does not directly get into the content, and then the length is too long, which makes me feel tired while reading it. There is a lot of content at the beginning that can be deleted directly, because leaving it is useless to the plot and makes me feel that the content is very complicated. The first chapter is well written, but I felt it was a headache to read and I didn't have the patience to read it.
This story has been in preparation since 2018. It originated from a true story told to me by a netizen. At that time, I promised him that he would write it well, but it took so long that I felt a little guilty. It may be that his life is too depressing and he has no friends around him who can confide this secret, so he can only talk to netizens. ---------------------------------------- After he told me his story word for word, we never contacted him again, but I still remember how hard I cried when we communicated until three or four in the middle of the night that night. I cried while handwriting the record, really like a tearful Xiu Gou. And he must have been crying a lot, and he was typing intermittently for me. He said that his heart was not good and he needed to take a rest sometimes (but maybe he was recalling the crying and laughing experiences that made him unhappy). This was also the main motivation that supported me to finish writing this story. ---------------------------------------- Because I feel so sorry for his ending, I want to give him a perfect ending. I also hope that he can really meet someone like Yun Shang who can bravely love him under the sun. I also wish him good health and happiness now~ ---------------------------------------- I kept stumbling on the outline later on, and I stopped for a while when I was halfway through writing the story because I was too busy with work. When I continued writing later, the original handwritten outline was lost due to moving, which made me anxious. Fortunately, part of it was recorded electronically, and I had a clear memory of the importance I attached to the story, so I was able to re-record some of the plot. ---------------------------------------- But what I didn't expect was that at the beginning of 21, the relationship between Bai Tuyunshang and Bai Tuyunshang encountered another bottleneck. Because I'm not good at writing emotional dramas (face covering), the three previous works were all aborted because the plots just developed to the point where the emotional drama was high-C. ---------------------------------------- I thought this movie really couldn't be aborted, so I decided to write it later. As I was writing it, it was like I had a golden finger, and I suddenly became enlightened about emotional dramas. I think it may be because I was drawn into the story of Bai Tuyun Shang, so the subsequent emotional scenes fell into place naturally. Moreover, it was so easy to write the emotional scenes between them in the later period, so much so that I had the urge to fill in all those immature pitfalls of practicing writing~ ---------------------------------------- Ah, now I feel like I have completed a mission, I am relaxed, and I really like this story that I have completed by myself. Although I had to redo it twice for overall adjustments, it was very tiring, but it was worth it. I am personally very satisfied with the final version. As for the outcome, of course I still hope that someone will like the story and the characters in it, but I'll try my best and leave everything to fate. —————————————————————————————— There are some thoughts about the characters later, but I won't go into them here. I'll release them when it's finished~ I hope Baozi who is interested in this story will enjoy reading it~
In the early stage, Bai Tu redeems Yun Shang, in the middle stage, the relationship develops, in the later stage, the climax of online public opinion occurs, and at the end, Yun Shang redeems Bai Tu. The first half and the second half of the story are completely different types. Although it is a bit divisive, I still hope someone can read it to the end. Later, it writes about the current situation of many minority groups, and there is also a fierce discussion on the Internet. The writing style is a bit poor, and it seems that this kind of bland and ordinary narrative method is not liked by many people now, and it makes me cry~~~ ////////////In order to arouse the curiosity and attention of passing readers, let me summarize the general meaning of the second half. Everyone is having a great time in the world of BL, but really few people care about how ordinary people live and how they live. Not many people care about what they need, what they fear, and what they really hope for. What most people want from them is just a sense of fun, imaginary fairness, and the desire to satisfy their own needs.
This is the first time I have come across such a realistic article. Rather than saying this is a story about love and redemption, it is better to say that it is a microcosm of the struggles of marginalized groups in life, and it is the cruel and real world that stands before us. Personally, I prefer articles with bland narratives. Overly gorgeous settings and obscure vocabulary will add too much unreality to a story. Life is a slow flow, and people and things should move forward slowly. That day, I was sitting at home having a literary drought. I clicked on the list category and fell in love with such a fresh and refined article at a glance. The author has been asking us whether this article is boring or too ordinary. I think otherwise. It is precisely in such an ordinary life that there are such extraordinary people and extraordinary things. Although the protagonist in the book is Bai Tu Yunshang, it writes about the lives of several types of people. Some of them suffered setbacks one after another like Bai Tu and suffered too many hardships; some were abandoned by their families like Xu Jiu and held on to a hope; some were entangled in the thorns of reality like Zhang Beiling and could not move; some chose to escape like Su Qiyang, unwilling to face the end and were forced to surrender; some chose to abandon their moral bottom line and use methods that went against their conscience; and some, although small, still worked hard to live. In such a group portrait-type article, everyone is the protagonist. "Look how different they are from us." The difference is that they have to suffer the strange prejudiced eyes of society, the difference is that even love has to be revealed quietly in the dark night, the difference is that they are desperate in the face of fate... They are far braver than us. When reading the book, I had the same idea as the author. I felt that Yun Shang was more like an illusory existence. As the author said, "I'm not sure whether he is gay or not. I just subconsciously think that he likes a man. For the same-sex group, the possibility of existence is very slim." Yun Shang is among them, more like a redeeming existence. In the book, he saves Baitu who fell on the edge of the cliff of life several times; in reality, he can be the entity of spiritual strength that supports the cruel life, and is a belief for most unfortunate people to live. In reality, no regrets will eventually be made up for, and wounds will always heal, but the author's gentle writing and a cloud tell us that hope will last forever. Most of the novels are fictional. At first glance, they are industrial saccharine with pink bubbles, becoming pleasure waste in the brain. But this novel is based on reality. The author uses the sharpest and cruelest words to expose the real problems in society - cheating, discrimination against TXL groups, campus QL, Internet violence, attraction, family violence... After reading this book, I felt a sense of sadness. These seemingly darkest and cruelest things are still happening quietly, which all arouse our vigilance and deep thought. What troubled me the most in this book was not only Bai Tu's dark past, but also the ending of Xu Jiu and Zhang Beiling. If some people are punished for their evil deeds, then the tragedy of these two people can only be caused by fate. In my opinion, Kujiu is like the second Bai Tu. Although he has waded through the mud, he is still cute and innocent. The author did not explain his final ending, but I secretly hope that he can live a good life and keep his rare innocence. Zhang Beiling has shouldered too many responsibilities. His inner heroism and extraordinary status are destined to make this journey more difficult for him than others. Only in front of a long time can he pursue his true heart. He is like a traveler running around in the wind and snow. During the long night, he takes a rest at the light and then gets up and rushes to the next stop. No nostalgia, no return. I also want to ask the netizen mentioned by the author how he is doing now. No matter how cruel life is, you have to go on, right? You should have walked out a long time ago, or maybe you haven't let go yet? I may not be able to completely empathize with you, but after reading your story, I hope you can live your life with all your strength, and you will definitely meet your Yun Shang. Ling Ling has already written a thousand words, so it's a simple book. What I want to say is that the overall reading of this book is very smooth and the rhythm is very harmonious. However, people who like this kind of slow pace may like it very much, but people who like fast pace will not be able to read it, which is a pity. It is recommended that the author try more various styles (?) And will continue to pay attention~
Ha
This is not Cloud Puppy! ! Why do puppies bite people? ! !
Wow, this is the first time I see someone from Xinjin who directly submits the final article. I thought he deleted his account and started over again.
Woo woo woo, it's right, it's right, the memories arranged in this way are really clever, not abrupt at all, giving people a feeling of sudden enlightenment. Why are the eye colors different? Why do I keep dreaming about becoming a child? Everything is right.
The bullying was very cruel at first, but I didn't let it go, Crying Bird~
This chapter is so well written. What he threw was not the stones, but the seeds of flowers. He expected to set off a stormy sea, but instead waited for the flowers to grow wantonly and enthusiastically from the bottom of his heart.
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! ! The white father and the white mother are so cute!
Kao, it's a knife, it'll kill me
If I drink too much, I will really burst into tears... Wuwuwuwu, I really like Xu Jiu and Beiling.
I clicked a song "Don't Love Me" by Joker Xue, and it was like a knife...
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
After reading the previous part, I feel that the author's writing style is pretty good. If he hadn't posted all the subsequent posts, I feel that more people would follow him.
Is there such a big age difference? !
It's so well written, I prefer this kind of modern everyday style
Oh, and there is also the Coriander Law, which echoes the first chapter, so the person that Teacher Bai told his students before is the one named Song?
Who is right, who is at fault, and who is to blame. How to calculate all the disasters caused by good intentions.
Wait, I am not standing in the wrong place... I have always felt that for a long time it was Shou, and Zhang Beiling was Gong (), is that so?
Did Meng Qing assist or not?
What! I keep getting Su Qiyang and Song Wujie confused! ! ! ! I thought it was a person! ! !
Do the three Cui brothers all like the heroine? ? ? [Split]
I would like to ask if Bai Tu lived in Dabieye, the house he lives in now. I thought it was an apartment-style one (he hasn't bought a house yet), but I remember seeing him going upstairs to the bedroom... (Help, he is really rich, why rent a villa?)
? ? ? ! ! ! Is Su Qiyang the only one who makes tea? ? ? Why is it so tea?
Su Qiyang or tea (gritting his teeth)
A glass of wine cp (referring to Beijiu) cannot be be! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Not allowed! ! ! ! !
Woohoo, this is too cruel (-???-???-???-???-???___-???-???-???-???-???)
When will the update be released? The story is great. I'm so excited to wait for it now (?? ?? )
The content is really good, and the writing is also very good, but I still want to say that the beginning is too cumbersome and does not directly get into the content, and then the length is too long, which makes me feel tired while reading it. There is a lot of content at the beginning that can be deleted directly, because leaving it is useless to the plot and makes me feel that the content is very complicated. The first chapter is well written, but I felt it was a headache to read and I didn't have the patience to read it.