"I think I'm more used to accepting than pursuing.
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Isn't life like this? We always live under the illusion that we still have a choice.
In fact, we can only obey. Because many options are options we cannot choose.
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In the end, I will just let nature take its course and wait and see what happens.
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I won't resist anymore.
Wouldn't it be nice to just accept it silently like this...? "