Who Is Waiting for Me with Pale Face and White Hair?

I wanted to get what I wanted, but in the end I found that I was running counter to my original intention. My wishes are big, my ideals are small, I just want to stay together forever. ———— The heroine is very bad, and the heroine imagines that the hero is even worse. ———— I just hope that when my face is gray and my hair is gray, I can have someone who can look at me and smile, but this is also a luxury. Conception: