Admiration is envy and love. He admires the ruthless Qing harp, but it can play thousands of sluggish loops, big beads and small beads; he admires the person who can use the lifeless harp to play the high mountains and flowing water, popping up the white snow in spring.
It's just that his years are drifting away quietly, his feelings are getting deeper and deeper, and he is getting more and more desperate. What will be his ending?
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